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oh my fucking god
oh my god
i finally, at 5:45 this morning as the little boy in the next bedroom woke up Super Early and started singing and slamming doors, finished the big Triss/Eskel scene which has literally taken me weeks to write and i reread it and it’s like… 5k words long… why was that so difficult… it took me so fucking long. i don’t even know if it’s good or conveyed what i wanted it to, but i just. it was so much. it’s blown any pretense of an “update schedule” right out of the fucking water, single-handedly, but i was determined that if this scene didn’t happen now, i couldn’t really justify myself as any kind of, something.
anyway now i’ve realized that the scene i wrote a month ago that was going to come next won’t work so i need another filler scene and a new POV so now i have to do that but since it’s not a sex scene i can hopefully fly through it and maybe update ancient sea before people forget it exists or die of despair.
oh my fucking god
oh my god
i finally, at 5:45 this morning as the little boy in the next bedroom woke up Super Early and started singing and slamming doors, finished the big Triss/Eskel scene which has literally taken me weeks to write and i reread it and it’s like… 5k words long… why was that so difficult… it took me so fucking long. i don’t even know if it’s good or conveyed what i wanted it to, but i just. it was so much. it’s blown any pretense of an “update schedule” right out of the fucking water, single-handedly, but i was determined that if this scene didn’t happen now, i couldn’t really justify myself as any kind of, something.
anyway now i’ve realized that the scene i wrote a month ago that was going to come next won’t work so i need another filler scene and a new POV so now i have to do that but since it’s not a sex scene i can hopefully fly through it and maybe update ancient sea before people forget it exists or die of despair.
