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Can you show us the bullet journal? I’ve been sort of in awe of people who even attempt that for ages, it seems like Next Level life skills somehow.
I saw things about it in passing and was like “that seems precious” and also “I love to-do lists on paper and doodle a lot so maybe I should do that” but I also was pretty hardcore like “I would obsess over that for a week and then abandon it” so. That last thing is about 100% likely to happen.
I don’t know. I have trouble understanding the descriptions as people talk about the ways they do it. Everything has to have a jargony name, and I can’t really follow most of the discussions.
And even though everyone says “it doesn’t have to be perfect!” clearly the biggest demographic talking about it online are people who are doing it for Instagram likes, so literally every image is of the most excruciatingly fastidious hand-lettered layouts by people with phenomenal handwriting and fifteen $10 pens neatly arranged on their desk.
Bro. I can hand-letter, sure, if you give me an example font and like 20 minutes, but my natural handwriting looks like I’m in the midst of a seizure, and not in any of the quirky-cute ways that the Instagram-precious seem to idolize. Also I have hardcore OCD about wasting paper, and can’t fucking handle the all-white-space layouts a lot of these people favor. No way. When I was in elementary school one of my teachers took to folding sheets of paper and telling me I wasn’t allowed to cram answers tightly: each question had to be answered in its own square between the folds. Because otherwise I’d just jam everything up into a corner illegibly. And I could not handle it. There were tears. There were meltdowns.
(When I graduated college my mother confessed that she’d always known I was learning-disabled but never pursued diagnosis because she felt like it would discourage me from achieving. Fucking thanks, Mom, you know there are tools I could have been using this whole time, but no, I’ll just never get anything done ever in my life because I can’t get my shit together because you were worried I’d be discouraged in fucking high school.)
So far there’s not much to look at, but I lost my shit slightly doing calendar layouts. I did just– three pages, four months on each page, of a grid calendar-style, and a problem I always have with calendars is that say the 1st is on a Saturday, there’s this whole line of blank squares that are the previous month? I can’t reconcile those with the previous month.
So, I ran the calendars together. So they’re all one grid. No weird repeated half-weeks.
I hate it. I can’t follow it either.
The problem is really that I can’t understand calendars.
ANYWAY. This is all going to be a massive experiment in just how learning-disabled I really am, because a lot of this shit I can ignore or compensate for or just work around in daily life, but when you lay it out in one place like that, you can’t help but notice: I’m really fucking learning-disabled. Holy shit.
So I have a feeling I’m not going to be getting the usual self-introspection things out of this.
I need to find an eraser and get rid of the massive wad of pencil lines I used to figure out how to make grid layouts, but after I do that, I’ll post some pictures.
My attempts at this are definitely not going to be Next Level anything, but I come home from work every single day with literally five or six half-sheets of paper upon which I have scribbled to-do lists that I never follow up on ever, so maybe at least I can put them into a book and if nothing else re-read them the next day instead of writing the same things on the lists?
Can you show us the bullet journal? I’ve been sort of in awe of people who even attempt that for ages, it seems like Next Level life skills somehow.
I saw things about it in passing and was like “that seems precious” and also “I love to-do lists on paper and doodle a lot so maybe I should do that” but I also was pretty hardcore like “I would obsess over that for a week and then abandon it” so. That last thing is about 100% likely to happen.
I don’t know. I have trouble understanding the descriptions as people talk about the ways they do it. Everything has to have a jargony name, and I can’t really follow most of the discussions.
And even though everyone says “it doesn’t have to be perfect!” clearly the biggest demographic talking about it online are people who are doing it for Instagram likes, so literally every image is of the most excruciatingly fastidious hand-lettered layouts by people with phenomenal handwriting and fifteen $10 pens neatly arranged on their desk.
Bro. I can hand-letter, sure, if you give me an example font and like 20 minutes, but my natural handwriting looks like I’m in the midst of a seizure, and not in any of the quirky-cute ways that the Instagram-precious seem to idolize. Also I have hardcore OCD about wasting paper, and can’t fucking handle the all-white-space layouts a lot of these people favor. No way. When I was in elementary school one of my teachers took to folding sheets of paper and telling me I wasn’t allowed to cram answers tightly: each question had to be answered in its own square between the folds. Because otherwise I’d just jam everything up into a corner illegibly. And I could not handle it. There were tears. There were meltdowns.
(When I graduated college my mother confessed that she’d always known I was learning-disabled but never pursued diagnosis because she felt like it would discourage me from achieving. Fucking thanks, Mom, you know there are tools I could have been using this whole time, but no, I’ll just never get anything done ever in my life because I can’t get my shit together because you were worried I’d be discouraged in fucking high school.)
So far there’s not much to look at, but I lost my shit slightly doing calendar layouts. I did just– three pages, four months on each page, of a grid calendar-style, and a problem I always have with calendars is that say the 1st is on a Saturday, there’s this whole line of blank squares that are the previous month? I can’t reconcile those with the previous month.
So, I ran the calendars together. So they’re all one grid. No weird repeated half-weeks.
I hate it. I can’t follow it either.
The problem is really that I can’t understand calendars.
ANYWAY. This is all going to be a massive experiment in just how learning-disabled I really am, because a lot of this shit I can ignore or compensate for or just work around in daily life, but when you lay it out in one place like that, you can’t help but notice: I’m really fucking learning-disabled. Holy shit.
So I have a feeling I’m not going to be getting the usual self-introspection things out of this.
I need to find an eraser and get rid of the massive wad of pencil lines I used to figure out how to make grid layouts, but after I do that, I’ll post some pictures.
My attempts at this are definitely not going to be Next Level anything, but I come home from work every single day with literally five or six half-sheets of paper upon which I have scribbled to-do lists that I never follow up on ever, so maybe at least I can put them into a book and if nothing else re-read them the next day instead of writing the same things on the lists?
