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Hahaha! Well, I mean. I know I sometimes come across as really ungraceful about reader attention– and I don’t mean that, at all, when I say woeful things about nobody loving me etcetera. Clearly, I’m a person with some issues (which, comfortingly, seem to be pretty well-represented, so it’s not like I’m the only person like this). It takes a lot of mindfulness to be like “beating yourself up is insulting to the people who like you so if you can’t be nice to yourself for yourself, be nice because other people will be hurt by it if you’re not”, but it’s a healthy effort, I think.
But. I’m a reader too. There are a lot of authors whose stuff I love and whose stories I’m deeply invested in, but like. How deep? Deep enough that I wonder about them, but in many cases not deep enough that I’d talk to the author about it. That’s actually a pretty steep divide, I think, for many people. So when I say “I don’t think many people would actually ask” it’s not that I’m discounting the wonderful people who’ve clearly been reading the thing, y’know, but I’m just saying, it’s a big step past reading-and-liking, to being-so-invested-you-want-to-keep-talking, and it’s more than I expect most people to do.
I will say, though, I don’t usually send asks or prompts or comments to people, but I only very rarely find myself not interested in reading authors’ answers to them, so I may be biased. (I’m exceptionally terrible at coming up with prompts and questions, it turns out.)
And I’m fucking abysmal at answering asks, even though I love love love love getting them, and I’m super behind even at comments, so. I want to be the kind of person who has great online relationships but I’m honestly terrible at making connections. Anyway.
sugarspiceandcursewords replied to your post “I’ve known for days that my period was imminent and yet failed to…”
I want to know the crazy backstory. Also the text convos between Kes and Finn. And the sex.
I have to think over how I’d tell more story. I desperately want to put out just a bunch of porny little epilogues but sex scenes take so much time to write. I love writing them, I’m just really slow at them. Partly because I can’t bear to work on them while anyone else is present, and I don’t get that much time to myself where I’m not mostly asleep. They take concentration, really. (I have written sex scenes at work where people can see my screen, but I have to be exceptionally not-giving-a-fuck for that to actually happen. I should have noted which ones they were, because I can’t remember now. It might have been some of my really filthy shit.)
Actually, the next Lost Kings update is hung up in a sex scene which is gratuitous to the plot but I really want to reward myself with it…
I have written out the text convo with Finn and Kes, though, and their first phone call, and I wrote their first meeting but it’s not a good draft, they go from 0 to 100 way faster than is actually in keeping with either character.
Heck. I don’t know if I should just do another sequel, or if I should try to organize myself to post stuff on Tumblr and just round it up onto AO3 in a less-formal sequel. I don’t know!
Hahaha! Well, I mean. I know I sometimes come across as really ungraceful about reader attention– and I don’t mean that, at all, when I say woeful things about nobody loving me etcetera. Clearly, I’m a person with some issues (which, comfortingly, seem to be pretty well-represented, so it’s not like I’m the only person like this). It takes a lot of mindfulness to be like “beating yourself up is insulting to the people who like you so if you can’t be nice to yourself for yourself, be nice because other people will be hurt by it if you’re not”, but it’s a healthy effort, I think.
But. I’m a reader too. There are a lot of authors whose stuff I love and whose stories I’m deeply invested in, but like. How deep? Deep enough that I wonder about them, but in many cases not deep enough that I’d talk to the author about it. That’s actually a pretty steep divide, I think, for many people. So when I say “I don’t think many people would actually ask” it’s not that I’m discounting the wonderful people who’ve clearly been reading the thing, y’know, but I’m just saying, it’s a big step past reading-and-liking, to being-so-invested-you-want-to-keep-talking, and it’s more than I expect most people to do.
I will say, though, I don’t usually send asks or prompts or comments to people, but I only very rarely find myself not interested in reading authors’ answers to them, so I may be biased. (I’m exceptionally terrible at coming up with prompts and questions, it turns out.)
And I’m fucking abysmal at answering asks, even though I love love love love getting them, and I’m super behind even at comments, so. I want to be the kind of person who has great online relationships but I’m honestly terrible at making connections. Anyway.
sugarspiceandcursewords replied to your post “I’ve known for days that my period was imminent and yet failed to…”
I want to know the crazy backstory. Also the text convos between Kes and Finn. And the sex.
I have to think over how I’d tell more story. I desperately want to put out just a bunch of porny little epilogues but sex scenes take so much time to write. I love writing them, I’m just really slow at them. Partly because I can’t bear to work on them while anyone else is present, and I don’t get that much time to myself where I’m not mostly asleep. They take concentration, really. (I have written sex scenes at work where people can see my screen, but I have to be exceptionally not-giving-a-fuck for that to actually happen. I should have noted which ones they were, because I can’t remember now. It might have been some of my really filthy shit.)
Actually, the next Lost Kings update is hung up in a sex scene which is gratuitous to the plot but I really want to reward myself with it…
I have written out the text convo with Finn and Kes, though, and their first phone call, and I wrote their first meeting but it’s not a good draft, they go from 0 to 100 way faster than is actually in keeping with either character.
Heck. I don’t know if I should just do another sequel, or if I should try to organize myself to post stuff on Tumblr and just round it up onto AO3 in a less-formal sequel. I don’t know!
