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ughhhhh
i brought all this shit to dye and print shirts for the farm staff, bought shirts, had them shipped here, prewashed them, got my shit all together, started to set up to do it, and… can’t find one small crucial bag that had two ingredients i absolutely need and cannot proceed without.
i know i had it last time i came to the farm, i know i took it back out home with me, i know i unloaded it from my car. i remember looking in it and seeing those things and thinking, oh! better make sure this comes back out with me.
it’s not in the container I was sure I’d transferred it into.
It’s not with the related items.
It’s not something I can run out to Wal-Mart and pick up. I would have had to order it. I spent like $400 from the supply place with the t-shirts; adding on those two ingredients would’ve been like ten bucks. and I already owned them so I didn’t. but if I had just fucking bought them again, they’d be here and I would be done with this fucking project already.
I am just going to lie here exhausted for a little while. I can’t fucking believe. I just. I had. I am so busy and I managed to carve out just enough time this afternoon and I have lugged! All this shit! I’ve lugged it back and forth! like three times! because I was going to get this done! ughhhhhhhh!
and people keep bugging me oh when will this project happen, and I was like, now! it’s going to happen now! and nobody was particularly excited, and now I’m just. I know people would’ve been happy when the project was done, I’m sure, I just have that extra why do i bother feeling to throw in with it.
I can’t replace those ingredients. The supply place is in California; having it express-shipped would be prohibitive. I own those things already. They must be back home in Buffalo.
I fucking hate living in two places, I just do, I can’t get my shit organized ever, this is the worst, and I hate everyone and also myself and I’m just going to lie here.
ughhhhh
i brought all this shit to dye and print shirts for the farm staff, bought shirts, had them shipped here, prewashed them, got my shit all together, started to set up to do it, and… can’t find one small crucial bag that had two ingredients i absolutely need and cannot proceed without.
i know i had it last time i came to the farm, i know i took it back out home with me, i know i unloaded it from my car. i remember looking in it and seeing those things and thinking, oh! better make sure this comes back out with me.
it’s not in the container I was sure I’d transferred it into.
It’s not with the related items.
It’s not something I can run out to Wal-Mart and pick up. I would have had to order it. I spent like $400 from the supply place with the t-shirts; adding on those two ingredients would’ve been like ten bucks. and I already owned them so I didn’t. but if I had just fucking bought them again, they’d be here and I would be done with this fucking project already.
I am just going to lie here exhausted for a little while. I can’t fucking believe. I just. I had. I am so busy and I managed to carve out just enough time this afternoon and I have lugged! All this shit! I’ve lugged it back and forth! like three times! because I was going to get this done! ughhhhhhhh!
and people keep bugging me oh when will this project happen, and I was like, now! it’s going to happen now! and nobody was particularly excited, and now I’m just. I know people would’ve been happy when the project was done, I’m sure, I just have that extra why do i bother feeling to throw in with it.
I can’t replace those ingredients. The supply place is in California; having it express-shipped would be prohibitive. I own those things already. They must be back home in Buffalo.
I fucking hate living in two places, I just do, I can’t get my shit organized ever, this is the worst, and I hate everyone and also myself and I’m just going to lie here.
