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Yah, like I said, algebra is stupid abstract. I am diagnosed add (I don’t like the h, it tends to confuse people when they’re faced with the reality of me), and while I learned fancy math, it was… Not easy. It literally takes me at least twice as long as a “normal” person to learn, and it’s draining to do it. But I needed it for chemistry and I loooooooove chemistry so. I learned. Mostly by trying the chemistry first, finding the holes in my math, going back, fixing the math, repeat.
I got no diagnoses, so. Any coping mechanisms I come up with, I came up with on my own, for my best guess of what’s actually wrong with me. I don’t actually know what the difference is between ADD and ADHD and a doctor pretty recently assured me there was no possible way I could have either one of those (because I’d know already) (why do you think I’m asking you???), so anyway. Maybe I’m just appropriating the label.
And actually chemistry was a good one for me too. I did all right in chemistry. I had a good teacher, he was very sort of low-key about it, he was like yeah you got some math issues, I don’t know if this’ll be easy for you but I’ll go over it a bunch, just keep plugging and I’ll try to explain it a couple different ways, and I put my head down and beast-moded through the class and scraped a B. He was super pleased and really kind to me about it. The math didn’t work but I just kept doing it because I could understand what the result had to be, because the whole thing made sense and was physical in some way.
And that was why I wanted so desperately to be allowed to take physics, because I thought if I had something practical and real to hang these results on, instead of a bunch of meaningless numbers, I could make it into something. I knew I had to come at this sort of thing backwards, but if it’s just a list of numbers there’s no other direction to come at it from.
But they said no, your grades are too bad, it’s important to have good grades for colleges, so you’re better off just omitting sciences than trying and failing. And so they wouldn’t let me take physics to see if I could overcome my math problems that way.
High school! I was seventeen! And i knew that was the last time I’d have the chance to take a physics class, I knew there wasn’t going to be room in my adult life to figure this out if I hadn’t already.
So I never did, and I never will; I have enough pain and struggle and drama in my life without seeking out the types of challenges that it’s a reason we do when we’re seventeen and not thirty-seven.
Yah, like I said, algebra is stupid abstract. I am diagnosed add (I don’t like the h, it tends to confuse people when they’re faced with the reality of me), and while I learned fancy math, it was… Not easy. It literally takes me at least twice as long as a “normal” person to learn, and it’s draining to do it. But I needed it for chemistry and I loooooooove chemistry so. I learned. Mostly by trying the chemistry first, finding the holes in my math, going back, fixing the math, repeat.
I got no diagnoses, so. Any coping mechanisms I come up with, I came up with on my own, for my best guess of what’s actually wrong with me. I don’t actually know what the difference is between ADD and ADHD and a doctor pretty recently assured me there was no possible way I could have either one of those (because I’d know already) (why do you think I’m asking you???), so anyway. Maybe I’m just appropriating the label.
And actually chemistry was a good one for me too. I did all right in chemistry. I had a good teacher, he was very sort of low-key about it, he was like yeah you got some math issues, I don’t know if this’ll be easy for you but I’ll go over it a bunch, just keep plugging and I’ll try to explain it a couple different ways, and I put my head down and beast-moded through the class and scraped a B. He was super pleased and really kind to me about it. The math didn’t work but I just kept doing it because I could understand what the result had to be, because the whole thing made sense and was physical in some way.
And that was why I wanted so desperately to be allowed to take physics, because I thought if I had something practical and real to hang these results on, instead of a bunch of meaningless numbers, I could make it into something. I knew I had to come at this sort of thing backwards, but if it’s just a list of numbers there’s no other direction to come at it from.
But they said no, your grades are too bad, it’s important to have good grades for colleges, so you’re better off just omitting sciences than trying and failing. And so they wouldn’t let me take physics to see if I could overcome my math problems that way.
High school! I was seventeen! And i knew that was the last time I’d have the chance to take a physics class, I knew there wasn’t going to be room in my adult life to figure this out if I hadn’t already.
So I never did, and I never will; I have enough pain and struggle and drama in my life without seeking out the types of challenges that it’s a reason we do when we’re seventeen and not thirty-seven.
