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s-leary replied to your post:Hi! This question may be sort of personal, but how…
I really, really wish I could go back and explain asexuality to 18-year-old me before that thing happened where I was a asshole to people who were into me because I did. not. get it.
YES THAT EXACTLY.
I mean. I know totally how it’s supposed to work. Just. Not. Not to me. You don’t really– want to touch my actual human body, do you? Surely not!
It’s really like… everyone else wants to eat a thing that is not food, and you literally just do not understand that’s what’s going on. People eat this stuff? Why would you eat this? Or– whatever it is that you’re trying to do with this thing? I was so often just so lost.
As it is I am not usually the quickest on the uptake in a conversation, and I miss the point a lot, and I’m not super well-connected to reality in the same way as the people around me usually are. So I’m used to missing the point here and there, and I get by. But man. People seriously wanting to date me– I missed the point so much.
And it was only a couple of bullies who would fake-ask me out, and it was always super obvious that they weren’t serious, but it just made me withdraw that much more into myself, and I just didn’t ever think about what it would be like if someone was actually serious ever. So I’m pretty sure I broke a dude’s heart in fourth grade when he was into me and I assumed he had to be kidding somehow because surely that wasn’t a thing that people did?
s-leary replied to your post:Hi! This question may be sort of personal, but how…
I really, really wish I could go back and explain asexuality to 18-year-old me before that thing happened where I was a asshole to people who were into me because I did. not. get it.
YES THAT EXACTLY.
I mean. I know totally how it’s supposed to work. Just. Not. Not to me. You don’t really– want to touch my actual human body, do you? Surely not!
It’s really like… everyone else wants to eat a thing that is not food, and you literally just do not understand that’s what’s going on. People eat this stuff? Why would you eat this? Or– whatever it is that you’re trying to do with this thing? I was so often just so lost.
As it is I am not usually the quickest on the uptake in a conversation, and I miss the point a lot, and I’m not super well-connected to reality in the same way as the people around me usually are. So I’m used to missing the point here and there, and I get by. But man. People seriously wanting to date me– I missed the point so much.
And it was only a couple of bullies who would fake-ask me out, and it was always super obvious that they weren’t serious, but it just made me withdraw that much more into myself, and I just didn’t ever think about what it would be like if someone was actually serious ever. So I’m pretty sure I broke a dude’s heart in fourth grade when he was into me and I assumed he had to be kidding somehow because surely that wasn’t a thing that people did?
