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[dragonlady7]

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well i’ve been useless lately, very slow at writing and not quick at anything else, and I knew already that this was true but today it occurred to me that today being the 2-year anniversary of my dad dying suddenly might be related a little to my total inability to actually get anything really important actually done?? and idk but maybe i’m just gonna sit on the couch and be useless tonight and not fret about it.

of course the kicker is, i can only feel better by getting things done, but i’m also so burnt out that trying to do things makes it worse, so i’m just sort of stuck like this, aren’t i. i can’t do anything, and i can’t stop trying to do things, and i can’t feel better until i get anything done but i also can’t feel better until i stop trying to get anything done so like

well, here i am, not very useful, and it sucks. Let’s just hope it’s deathiversary-related and not just like, for no reason, because the former offers some hope of it working itself out and the latter kinda doesn’t. (Your picture was not posted)