well well well

[dragonlady7]

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So I was away a week and a half, and came back to work yesterday, and nobody’s masking anymore. I kept my mask on, mostly because I’ve been occasionally short of breath and I am absolutely paranoid that I’ve somehow magically had the plague and never known it. Masking just seems smart, to me. a coworker was absent, for unspecified reasons. I thought little of it, and kept my mask on and kept to myself.

7pm, the store manager texts that absent coworker has just tested positive for COVID.

WEIRD, how the pandemic isn’t over and wearing a mask remains KIND OF A GOOD IDEA! Argh. Anyway, everyone else is scrambling to get tests but like. I’m not going to fret, unless other people start testing positive. Absent Coworker works with everyone, so they’re all surely exposed. But there’s nothing else to say about that, really. Guess I’ll wear my KF94 masks to work the rest of the week…

below is mostly, a record of my mild annoyance and a reminder about what i was so worked up about, over the weekend, with my weird entitled commenter issue.

the commenter who was Big Mad that i did not instantly see their point and rewrite all of one of my epic stories to conform to their opinion on an extremely specific and yet slightly-mysteriously-unspecified issue finally flounced after i told them to stop “debating” me and to instead take care of themself, and in their final message they commanded me to just say I didn’t care, which seems a strange thing to tell someone who’d just spent hours explaining a point of view (but, i mean, Troll Translation: “you won’t conform to my opinion” = “you don’t care”), and as their parting shot they were like you don’t get to preach self-care to me and i would like to state for the record that when i said “take care of yourself” i meant like, take care of your own shit, like, get some fucking therapy, not like… take a bubble bath. i mean, if a bubble bath would stop you from traumadumping on internet strangers after self-harming by repeatedly attempting to read a scene that was triggering you, then do that, but i feel like it won’t. I want you to take care of yourself because it is inappropriate and distressing for you to ask me to take care of you for you.

Also they went back up the thread and deleted one of their replies to me, meaning that the lengthy explanation I’d written of why I’d chosen to portray a particular thing as I had is now just sort of floating there in isolation, so like…. I’m not doing this to be petty, I’m doing this so my effort wasn’t entirely wasted, I’m going to fucking paste their comment back into the comment thread as a quote because what the shit. what was the fucking point of that. why are you so– well, it’s about control, I get that, but the problem with attempting to take control of someone else’s social media space is that uh I’m uh the mod, there. I get the notifications emailed to me, I have a record of what was said. So, kinda doomed to failure. Not very productive.

I know, I know, it’s my own fault for assuming good-faith debate, when everyone I asked for advice was like “troll, delete”, but. I am what I am.

The really annoying thing is that if they were serious that they mostly wanted to know that I was going to take the particular issue seriously (of course they didn’t ask it that way– I’ve had previous commenters be like “so you mentioned X, and that’s a thing I’m touchy about, can I ask if there’s gonna be a resolution or if it’s gonna stay kinda a joke?” and i’m always happy to discuss that, but that was not what this commenter was like, instead they were like “is x even necessary to mention” which like, this story was completed in fucking October and has like 9500 hits and nobody else has had an issue with this scene, I’m not going to do a major fucking overhaul?? to remove a canon detail???), then in a couple more chapters it just so happens I am going to address some of the implications of that very thing– and I have like, timestamps, i posted excerpts of that scene ten days ago, this has been part of the plan for kind of a while now–

anyway, I’m just stating for the record, X is necessary and is a recurring fucking theme here, and if I can get my shit together I’m going to have another Canon Explainer post in a bit about the historic practice of capturing enemy insignia in battle, because who I am as a person is compulsive about History Facts and when I say to you, almost every detail I include in a story is pretty deeply-considered, that may well be a drastic understatement.

I’m not saying I’ve never wedged my foot into my mouth, but like, odds are pretty good I at least thought about the thing even if i’ve said it clumsily, and if I’ve reached a different conclusion than you on something, that doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it at all.

I do mean it when I ask people to let me know if I should tag things, I genuinely do, and like– again, “is X gonna stay a punchline or get a resolution” is a perfectly valid question. “I have a kind of unusual trigger but could you warn for it?”– probably I will try to find a way to accomodate this, if I at all can! “I find the way this is phrased troublesome, did you consider X ramification”= I may need a minute but I can respond to that and will likely in the end appreciate the feedback. But “You have a different opinion about X than I do and I disagree and you must treat it differently in your work” = nnnnot so much. (Your picture was not posted)

Comments

[minoanmiss]

UGH that commenter. *sends you strength*

[sabotabby]

Pretty sure my workplace is about to have a covidsplosion. Slightly worried that I have it due to the unmasking happening around me.