dragonlady7

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as for me, i got a terrible headache yesterday evening, drank a bunch of water, it didn’t help, i went to bed, it hurt all night, i slept like shit, everything was terrible (by the way! it’s real to me now! all it took was removing distractions, getting horizontal on a soft surface, and turning out the lights and then oh! everything’s fucking real now! despair!) and I woke up feeling like hell this morning and dragged myself out of bed and got some ibuprofen and looked at it and was like “this will give me an upset stomach if I don’t eat” so i went and found the lunch I packed myself yesterday morning before checking my phone, and ate the yogurt I’d put in there–

and the first bite made my headache go away so GUESS WHO IS A WHOLE DUMBASS WHO FORGOT HOW HUNGER WORKS FOR TWELVE HOURS good one, me.

anyway. Mom doesn’t want me to come until after Christmas.

I want to go hang out with MM and eat junk and drink a lot and get baby-snuggled (they’re not babies now but they are not too big to snuggle) and all but that would break quarantine so I probably should not. :(

Probably I should go to work tomorrow, I can’t face it today. Maybe Thursday too, I ought to wrap things up there. And then I’ll do Christmas with Dude’s mom on Friday, and bring the cat over too, and then we’ll go to Mom’s on Saturday and stay probably through the end of the year.

Mom says they’re going to do a Zoom funeral on New Year’s Eve and I feel extremely selfish about this but– NYE is Dude’s birthday and we’d planned a party at MM’s house, and had been looking forward to it. I mean, we could just– move it back a day, but it seems weird to me to do a funeral on NYE! Oh well, it’s not up to me to complain.

Maybe we can have a party on New Year’s Day on our way back out to Buffalo. (Your picture was not posted)