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2020 year in review is a statement that feels removed from reality as my brain is stuck in august

please tell me what month your brain is stuck in, i know a lot of people say march but when did 2020 just stop moving for you?

oh god. i don’t know and the worst part is that i didn’t realize i was stuck until the other day, when my dude was complaining about some coworker. “He’s been working on this since September, and this is how far he’s gotten,” he said, showing me a log on his work computer since his work computer is in our house which he never leaves anymore. [We’ve had to make an agreement to set time aside to complain to one another about things, since we can’t have normal conversations with coworkers anymore.]

I stared blankly. Since September. “Is that a… long time?” I said, suddenly feeling my own total lack of awareness of time yawning below me like an expected next step on a broken staircase that isn’t there and I’m about to fall to my doom.

He stared at me. “What month do you think it is?” he said, horribly.

“It’s,” I said, and then genuinely didn’t know.

Two days ago a friend was texting with me about her locked-down kids and how she’d come up with some outdoor activities for them and I had a long moment as I realized I did not know whether the weather is currently swinging more toward cold or warm, since I did not know which season it is. I had actually begun to type that I was glad they’d be able to spend more time outside soon, and had to delete it when I realized we live in the northern hemisphere and it is about to be midwinter so the Snow Season is not quite yet upon us.

FUCK. I wasn’t good at temporal reality or the concept of linear time before, I’m never going to recover from this.

Comments

[deerna]

I'm glad that I'm not the only one feeling this -- I think I got it a little in a start-and-stop form more than missing entire months but like- I am terrible with routine but if there's one thing I do quite religiously is my weekly spread on my bullet journal.

I skipped a week and i couldn't figure out what was wrong with the count of days until I realized that 13 doesn't come after 6. The really weird thing is that I somehow skipped it from THE MIDDLE of the week instead of like, from one monday to the other? Time is truly a capitalist fabrication.

[dragonlady7]

ha, i have never succeeded at bullet journaling but i can get behind the sentiment.
(the longest continuous stretch I ever achieved was in a journal that then got burnt up in a fire so uhhhh i took it as an omen and now i just carry a journal around for a place to keep my stamps and a spare pen.)

[deerna]

holy SHIT definitely a sign O_____O

[dragonlady7]

I found the remnants of the book in the ashes-- just a chunk of burnt paper and the front had a scrawled mark that I could make out was "TO DO" in my handwriting, and i was like YUP OK
It was about all I could identify, and how I could be sure my backpack had been in there. :(

[deerna]

Hhh that's terrible! Material things and all but ;__;