Chapter update:
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Chapter 3 update on A Complete Education, featuring Deret Beshelar: Disaster Bi, and his Inevitable Opsec Freakout Over Ciphers.
(To be fair Deret’s more of a Disaster Demi but the meme usually says Disaster Bi so I’m rolling with it. Nobody does alignment charts for the grey-As, we just have to deal.)
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Deret stood, desperately uncomfortable. In a moment, he finally blurted, “Cala, what must I do to earn back his trust?”
Cala blinked up at him, as if he hadn’t been expecting the question. Well, perhaps he hadn’t. “What must– I’m sure I don’t know, Deret,” he said. “He thinks thou wilt judge him because thou judgest everything that passes before thine eyes. I’m sure thy expression will never give away aught that causes him harm because that’s all thy expression normally reveals, that thou dost disapprove of everyone and everything thou ever didst see. Honestly it is a useful quality in a nohecharis and indubitably why thou wast so easily chosen for the job, but it makes thee not the best suited to the attendance of a nervous and abused youth facing so massively potentially embarrassing an ordeal as losing his virginity in more or less public spectacle.”
Deret had earnestly desired honesty from Cala, and now that he had it, it felt rather like he’d been kicked in the gut. He managed a breath, nodded blindly, and left the room, stumbling into his bedroom and sitting down heavily on the trunk that served him as a chair.
He breathed for a little while, shakily, then collected himself enough to get his boots off. He knew he’d been given this assignment to get him out of his commanding officer’s hair. He knew he hadn’t been popular; he’d never been good at making friends, and a large part of climbing the ranks of the Guard was in making connections with other officers in a way he’d just never been good at. But he’d been foolish enough to think none of that mattered here, that his devotion would be enough–
Well, it didn’t matter. His lord didn’t have to like him. Edrehasivar had more options now than he had when he’d needed Cala and Deret to accompany him during his coronation vigil.
Deret stood up and undressed himself efficiently, putting his outer clothes away and the inner ones into the laundry hamper where the staff would collect them. He took his robe out of his trunk and put it on, and went out, intending to go to the household’s bathing room. Cala was still sitting in the anteroom.
“I’m sorry,” Cala said awkwardly, “I said that more harshly than I meant to.”
“But thou toldst the truth,” Deret said, “so I thank thee.”
“It was needlessly unkind,” Cala said.
Deret looked at him. “Apparently, so am I,” he said. “I reap as I sow.” And with that, he left.
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Chapter 3 update on A Complete Education, featuring Deret Beshelar: Disaster Bi, and his Inevitable Opsec Freakout Over Ciphers.
(To be fair Deret’s more of a Disaster Demi but the meme usually says Disaster Bi so I’m rolling with it. Nobody does alignment charts for the grey-As, we just have to deal.)
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Deret stood, desperately uncomfortable. In a moment, he finally blurted, “Cala, what must I do to earn back his trust?”
Cala blinked up at him, as if he hadn’t been expecting the question. Well, perhaps he hadn’t. “What must– I’m sure I don’t know, Deret,” he said. “He thinks thou wilt judge him because thou judgest everything that passes before thine eyes. I’m sure thy expression will never give away aught that causes him harm because that’s all thy expression normally reveals, that thou dost disapprove of everyone and everything thou ever didst see. Honestly it is a useful quality in a nohecharis and indubitably why thou wast so easily chosen for the job, but it makes thee not the best suited to the attendance of a nervous and abused youth facing so massively potentially embarrassing an ordeal as losing his virginity in more or less public spectacle.”
Deret had earnestly desired honesty from Cala, and now that he had it, it felt rather like he’d been kicked in the gut. He managed a breath, nodded blindly, and left the room, stumbling into his bedroom and sitting down heavily on the trunk that served him as a chair.
He breathed for a little while, shakily, then collected himself enough to get his boots off. He knew he’d been given this assignment to get him out of his commanding officer’s hair. He knew he hadn’t been popular; he’d never been good at making friends, and a large part of climbing the ranks of the Guard was in making connections with other officers in a way he’d just never been good at. But he’d been foolish enough to think none of that mattered here, that his devotion would be enough–
Well, it didn’t matter. His lord didn’t have to like him. Edrehasivar had more options now than he had when he’d needed Cala and Deret to accompany him during his coronation vigil.
Deret stood up and undressed himself efficiently, putting his outer clothes away and the inner ones into the laundry hamper where the staff would collect them. He took his robe out of his trunk and put it on, and went out, intending to go to the household’s bathing room. Cala was still sitting in the anteroom.
“I’m sorry,” Cala said awkwardly, “I said that more harshly than I meant to.”
“But thou toldst the truth,” Deret said, “so I thank thee.”
“It was needlessly unkind,” Cala said.
Deret looked at him. “Apparently, so am I,” he said. “I reap as I sow.” And with that, he left.
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Date: 2019-04-16 01:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-04-16 01:31 pm (UTC)Kiru is absolutely a Distinguished Ace, for the record.
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Date: 2019-04-16 01:32 pm (UTC)Poor Beleshar. Maybe he'll figure it out, or at least get a lot less Disaster about it someday.
hah, yeah, Kiru definitely is.
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Date: 2019-04-16 03:54 pm (UTC)Kiru has 0 attraction and basically 0 drive either, and was fortunate enough to pretty early on gravitate toward religious orders, but she's since then had enough life experience and done enough introspection to tease out what's intrinsic and what's external, in all that, for her.
Csevet is allo as fuck, and has assumed himself to be aro but is going to find out he's not.
Telimezh thinks he's sort of ace but he's going to have a terribly inconvenient Heterosexual Awakening at some point during the story; he's just never spent much time around women so he hasn't had the opportunity to discover that about himself.
I haven't settled on what Cala's deal is, so I don't know where I'd put him on an alignment chart...
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Date: 2019-04-16 06:16 pm (UTC)I love how much thought you've put into everyone's orientation; it's really delightful.
Also all this is making me want to reread the book itself.
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Date: 2019-04-16 07:03 pm (UTC)I like to think about the different ways people find love and how they experience it, it's a big thing I like to put into stories I write.
Otherwise everyone ends up Clueless Demi Self-Inserts, lol.
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Date: 2019-04-16 08:09 pm (UTC)hah, yeah, it's a good thing to think about! and a useful way not to have clueless demis everywhere, as nice as it is to see them at all. :)
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Date: 2019-04-16 02:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-04-16 03:16 pm (UTC)I have personally read a great deal of fic in canons I don't know anything about, but it's a mixed bag. I am honored you'd bother, for me. <3
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Date: 2019-04-17 04:26 pm (UTC)I havestarted reading the novel this evening, so let's see.