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ineptshieldmaid replied to your post:millicentthecat replied to your…
You’re allowed to give yourself permission to take _time_ to process it, basically. Especially if your first response is angry defensiveness.
But that’s the problem, when you get locked into one of those anxiety loops– I answered it last night, because I wasn’t going to but then as I was getting ready for bed my head was going around and around writing increasingly-divorced-from-reality rants about how terrible everything is and how nobody should ever do anything ever.
So it was either respond as calmly as manageable in the heat of the moment, OR not sleep and freak out all night. Them’s the choices.
I feel like I picked the lesser evil but I mean. I’m in an anxiety spiral, so there’s not actually a lesser evil. Everything is evil and we’re all going to die alone, so.
Believe me, if I could chill out, I would. I wrote an apology too but that’s, I mean. I don’t know how to have normal feelings anymore, and also the world is ending and this is just, you know, the worst thing to happen to anyone in the history of ever.
ineptshieldmaid replied to your post:millicentthecat replied to your…
You’re allowed to give yourself permission to take _time_ to process it, basically. Especially if your first response is angry defensiveness.
But that’s the problem, when you get locked into one of those anxiety loops– I answered it last night, because I wasn’t going to but then as I was getting ready for bed my head was going around and around writing increasingly-divorced-from-reality rants about how terrible everything is and how nobody should ever do anything ever.
So it was either respond as calmly as manageable in the heat of the moment, OR not sleep and freak out all night. Them’s the choices.
I feel like I picked the lesser evil but I mean. I’m in an anxiety spiral, so there’s not actually a lesser evil. Everything is evil and we’re all going to die alone, so.
Believe me, if I could chill out, I would. I wrote an apology too but that’s, I mean. I don’t know how to have normal feelings anymore, and also the world is ending and this is just, you know, the worst thing to happen to anyone in the history of ever.
