i can't

[dragonlady7]

ugh i'm trying to finish like, one handmade thing, one lousy handmade thing this whole year, to send to my niece in maryland, and it has to be done and then i have to wrap all the gifts and then i have to put them into the package and then i have to mail it and ARGH
it's not going well
none of it is going well and i just, it's way too many steps, i can't finish any of it and i have hit way too many little snags and i can't see my way around anything to finish it and it's all Too Much.

I got Dude's family's presents mailed off this morning; California is farther away. But mine is. I don't know. I don't know how to finish and i don't know what to do and I don't know how to make it work and it's too much. ARGH.

I have not yet begun anything for my family. (The package I'm talking about is for my older sister's family; I'm seeing the other two sisters and my parents uhhhhh sometime maybe I don't know.) (I don't even know what I'm getting that niece. I have not even thought about it. It's too much.)

ANYWAY it is all getting to me, I've just broken three sewing machine needles and I can't even explain all else that went wrong and I am OVERLOADED.

I would go to bed but I'm all worked-up now. Argh.

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[dragonlady7]

I was so, so so lucky, getting mine repaired-- I was still convinced if only I did it right I could get it to work, and i 100% FEEL YOU on how you can so easily fritter away your entire crafting session time just trying to get a machine to work-- and Dude's elderly aunt, who is an avid quilter and very active in the quilting-for-charity scene locally (she raises literal thousands of dollars for a variety of charities by auctioning off her exquisite art quilts), said "oh, I have the phone number of the repair guy who used to work at the big department store downtown in the 50s, I've known him for years and followed him from quilt shop to quilt shop as he did repair work for them and he finally gave me his number, you want it?" so I said yes, screwed up all my Coping On The Phone tricks, and called him, and he came and picked up my serger at work (I worked close to his house), fixed it in three days, and brought it back, for a flat $80 fee payable in cash on delivery, and it's worked great ever since.
And then I said to Dude's aunt, "I need to call the guy again, my sewing machine needs love too", and she said, sadly, "oh, he has pancreatic cancer, I don't think he can fix machines anymore. I'll give you his former partner's number next." And I still haven't gotten the other number, alas, but I had my embroidery machine serviced at the latest local quilt shop, because it was brand new and didn't work. They serviced it, said it was ok but better now, and sold me the actual solution, which was expensive bobbin thread, apparently. But they gave me a spool for free, and it's lasted me this long so I haven't even opened the second one I bought, so who knows really.