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thesacredreznor replied to your post “oh christ i just noticed the google doc i first started writing down…”
i’m attempting nano this year for the first time since high school and i am terrified lmao. i owe you one for encouraging me in my dumb franklin expedition au epistolary which has turned into a different dumb franklin expedition epistolary that i’m planning on writing for nano. very much ugh.
I think I first completed NaNo in 2002, definitely also did in 2003, have done several other years, and I just… wasn’t getting anything useful out of it anymore, I thought, so I figured I’d take a break from it these last couple years, but I haven’t achieved anything useful out of *that* either, so.
It’s not that I can’t make habits, it’s not that I can’t produce things, it’s that I have no project management or motivation beyond a compulsion to write things. Having audiences for fanfic has helped, and it’s great that I’ve completed fanfic, but I just. I don’t have any, kind of, I don’t know, support structure, or like– I don’t know where to start. I can sit alone in silence and write a whole novel, I’ve proven that, but I can’t make it matter, and I don’t know how to fix that.
ooooshinythings r eplied to your post “oh christ i just noticed the google doc i first started writing down…”
*offers sympathy* so what if it hasn’t been your year? You’ve survived so far! I’m not one to comment much, but I do like seeing you pop up on my dash. So… consider this the void waving back? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Well, hi, the void. I do appreciate the wave. :)
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Its always interesting to see how fanfic turns into fic into monster novels. I would settle for more Star Wars stories but NOOOO
Just– everything I write turns into monster novels. And if I could just. I don’t know! People seem to write novellas and have that work out for them, so maybe I should try that, but I don’t know how to… do that. I mean, I just don’t know how to manage anything, and I think that’s my problem, but I don’t know where to start in fixing that.
ANYHOO. I just went idly and clicked on the link from the NaNoWriMo email, they’ve been emailing me for literally a decade and a half, and somehow I remembered my login (it helps that I never changed my email address), and so now I’m on the site.
I don’t find the forums helpful. I don’t need motivation to write and honestly in situations like that, most other writers just annoy the piss out of me, which is petty and unhelpful but oh my lord, apparently the way I was when I was a Tortured Artist at 13 when I started my first novel is universal, and it’s both reassuring and dismaying, because I just don’t have any patience for the way I was which means I’m not at all patient with other people who surely deserve the patience in turn that I’m sure I received but don’t remember (but must have, or I’d be dry bones in a ditch somewhere by now, but how did no one murder me).
But surely if I, I don’t know, set yet some more goals, and try yet another time, and like… do… a thing… it’s better than not… doing a thing? I DON’T KNOW.
I am a useless curmudgeon of a human being with nothing to give back to a community and I just want to figure out how to make having written dozens of fucking books by now actually matter, you know?
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thesacredreznor replied to your post “oh christ i just noticed the google doc i first started writing down…”
i’m attempting nano this year for the first time since high school and i am terrified lmao. i owe you one for encouraging me in my dumb franklin expedition au epistolary which has turned into a different dumb franklin expedition epistolary that i’m planning on writing for nano. very much ugh.
I think I first completed NaNo in 2002, definitely also did in 2003, have done several other years, and I just… wasn’t getting anything useful out of it anymore, I thought, so I figured I’d take a break from it these last couple years, but I haven’t achieved anything useful out of *that* either, so.
It’s not that I can’t make habits, it’s not that I can’t produce things, it’s that I have no project management or motivation beyond a compulsion to write things. Having audiences for fanfic has helped, and it’s great that I’ve completed fanfic, but I just. I don’t have any, kind of, I don’t know, support structure, or like– I don’t know where to start. I can sit alone in silence and write a whole novel, I’ve proven that, but I can’t make it matter, and I don’t know how to fix that.
ooooshinythings r eplied to your post “oh christ i just noticed the google doc i first started writing down…”
*offers sympathy* so what if it hasn’t been your year? You’ve survived so far! I’m not one to comment much, but I do like seeing you pop up on my dash. So… consider this the void waving back? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Well, hi, the void. I do appreciate the wave. :)
missbuster replied to your post
“missbuster replied to your post “i would bullet point this but i…”
Its always interesting to see how fanfic turns into fic into monster novels. I would settle for more Star Wars stories but NOOOO
Just– everything I write turns into monster novels. And if I could just. I don’t know! People seem to write novellas and have that work out for them, so maybe I should try that, but I don’t know how to… do that. I mean, I just don’t know how to manage anything, and I think that’s my problem, but I don’t know where to start in fixing that.
ANYHOO. I just went idly and clicked on the link from the NaNoWriMo email, they’ve been emailing me for literally a decade and a half, and somehow I remembered my login (it helps that I never changed my email address), and so now I’m on the site.
I don’t find the forums helpful. I don’t need motivation to write and honestly in situations like that, most other writers just annoy the piss out of me, which is petty and unhelpful but oh my lord, apparently the way I was when I was a Tortured Artist at 13 when I started my first novel is universal, and it’s both reassuring and dismaying, because I just don’t have any patience for the way I was which means I’m not at all patient with other people who surely deserve the patience in turn that I’m sure I received but don’t remember (but must have, or I’d be dry bones in a ditch somewhere by now, but how did no one murder me).
But surely if I, I don’t know, set yet some more goals, and try yet another time, and like… do… a thing… it’s better than not… doing a thing? I DON’T KNOW.
I am a useless curmudgeon of a human being with nothing to give back to a community and I just want to figure out how to make having written dozens of fucking books by now actually matter, you know?
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