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chippanfire replied to your post:I see that my queue is just now spitting out all…
I also read rpf and leave no kudos or comments and I usually have to have a shower afterwards because I feel gross. Also, I try to combine it with other things that make me feel gross so I don’t waste water, so I found myself reading some in a supermarket the other day, and it’s a supermarket I don’t like going to, so that worked out well
LOLOL exactly!
I don’t like to examine this part of myself this closely. It’s terribly self-hating for me to impose these artificial divisions in my id-based pleasures. Either fanfiction is okay or it isn’t! RPF is just a genre of fanfiction! It’s just the same thing only more so. And yet. And yet!
I do the same thing with the Hydr* Trash P*rty to an extent– like, this is definitely unredeemed porn, and yet, it’s only a matter of degree– but like, I don’t like to comment or kudos or anything, and I should. If you like something, even if you don’t like that you like it, you should own up.
But no. No. I – I can’t. I feel like I need to pretend I don’t like these things.
It’s lying to yourself, is what it is. And yet.
No, I’m not going to make another pseud to post it if I finish this. I’m already skating the edge of the line of idtastic, there’s no point pretending that line is any thicker than it is.
chippanfire replied to your post:I see that my queue is just now spitting out all…
I also read rpf and leave no kudos or comments and I usually have to have a shower afterwards because I feel gross. Also, I try to combine it with other things that make me feel gross so I don’t waste water, so I found myself reading some in a supermarket the other day, and it’s a supermarket I don’t like going to, so that worked out well
LOLOL exactly!
I don’t like to examine this part of myself this closely. It’s terribly self-hating for me to impose these artificial divisions in my id-based pleasures. Either fanfiction is okay or it isn’t! RPF is just a genre of fanfiction! It’s just the same thing only more so. And yet. And yet!
I do the same thing with the Hydr* Trash P*rty to an extent– like, this is definitely unredeemed porn, and yet, it’s only a matter of degree– but like, I don’t like to comment or kudos or anything, and I should. If you like something, even if you don’t like that you like it, you should own up.
But no. No. I – I can’t. I feel like I need to pretend I don’t like these things.
It’s lying to yourself, is what it is. And yet.
No, I’m not going to make another pseud to post it if I finish this. I’m already skating the edge of the line of idtastic, there’s no point pretending that line is any thicker than it is.
