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dragonlady7via http://ift.tt/2o5inDB:
Oh that sounds really awful. At least that’s not what’s going on with me!
girderednerve replied:
it could be depression? mine is inconsistent & doesn’t really announce itself, and sometimes i get like, reduced cognition first. i hope it wears off, i guess, that sounds sucky as hell
icantbearsedtothinkofone replied:
lo! I can write applications and do super-complicated shit with spreadsheets and I fixed all the shit in the office Monday morning despite having never been shown any of it, but I haven’t put my washing away in weeks, I’ve lost most of my work trousers and I forgot I hadn’t finished with a customer for Friday because of internet problems because I’d slept since then. Adulting is a myth, I’m sure.
My problem is that this has been going on for years. It gets worse or better incrementally, but the fact remains that I can’t really read books anymore, when I used to be voracious, and I can’t keep motivation for complex tasks because I literally forget what I was trying to do, and I just– I feel like my brain’s just got big gaping holes in it and I complain about it a lot but fixing it seems out of reach.
I did manage to find that there’s a live chat help option on the NYS of Health website, and a lovely faceless person named Tyler talked me through what was wrong with my application (it literally does not say anywhere that I cannot use the form of documentation that I tried to use for my specific situation, you just have to know that) and wrote a template for me to use to create the documentation I do need, and confirmed that the open enrollment period does not apply to me and so I can do my application whenever, and if this is rejected, can just reapply. They were also very concerned for me and when I said that calling on the phone was a recipe for disaster in my case because I apparently can’t follow a conversation (I’m still so scarred from the Wells-Fargo disaster, that’s the last time anyone really made me use the phone and they’ve insisted that the issue is that I didn’t follow the directions they gave me on the phone, so you can imagine how eager I am to do anything actually important in any way that’s not in writing) and gave me a ton of other options. So… we’ll see.
I like to think that after struggling this hard to get health insurance I’ll use it to see a professional who will attempt to actually solve my enormous brain fog problems, but we all know that’s never going to happen and I’m going to spend the rest of my life semi-non-functional and scraping by.
The worst part is probably when people give me beautiful, well-thought-out, well-intentioned advice, that I literally just can’t understand how to apply to my own personal situation. I don’t know! I don’t know. Guess I’ll die!
Oh that sounds really awful. At least that’s not what’s going on with me!
girderednerve replied:
it could be depression? mine is inconsistent & doesn’t really announce itself, and sometimes i get like, reduced cognition first. i hope it wears off, i guess, that sounds sucky as hell
icantbearsedtothinkofone replied:
lo! I can write applications and do super-complicated shit with spreadsheets and I fixed all the shit in the office Monday morning despite having never been shown any of it, but I haven’t put my washing away in weeks, I’ve lost most of my work trousers and I forgot I hadn’t finished with a customer for Friday because of internet problems because I’d slept since then. Adulting is a myth, I’m sure.
My problem is that this has been going on for years. It gets worse or better incrementally, but the fact remains that I can’t really read books anymore, when I used to be voracious, and I can’t keep motivation for complex tasks because I literally forget what I was trying to do, and I just– I feel like my brain’s just got big gaping holes in it and I complain about it a lot but fixing it seems out of reach.
I did manage to find that there’s a live chat help option on the NYS of Health website, and a lovely faceless person named Tyler talked me through what was wrong with my application (it literally does not say anywhere that I cannot use the form of documentation that I tried to use for my specific situation, you just have to know that) and wrote a template for me to use to create the documentation I do need, and confirmed that the open enrollment period does not apply to me and so I can do my application whenever, and if this is rejected, can just reapply. They were also very concerned for me and when I said that calling on the phone was a recipe for disaster in my case because I apparently can’t follow a conversation (I’m still so scarred from the Wells-Fargo disaster, that’s the last time anyone really made me use the phone and they’ve insisted that the issue is that I didn’t follow the directions they gave me on the phone, so you can imagine how eager I am to do anything actually important in any way that’s not in writing) and gave me a ton of other options. So… we’ll see.
I like to think that after struggling this hard to get health insurance I’ll use it to see a professional who will attempt to actually solve my enormous brain fog problems, but we all know that’s never going to happen and I’m going to spend the rest of my life semi-non-functional and scraping by.
The worst part is probably when people give me beautiful, well-thought-out, well-intentioned advice, that I literally just can’t understand how to apply to my own personal situation. I don’t know! I don’t know. Guess I’ll die!
