Now I’ve tried drinking rye and
Mar. 23rd, 2016 08:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Now I’ve tried drinking rye and gamblin’
Dancing with damnation is a ball
But of all the little ways I’ve found to hurt myself
Well you might be my favorite one of all
This album is fucking dynamite, so if this kind of music doesn’t make you ill you should probably check it out. It hits me kind of sideways, kind of opaque and not obvious, but eventually it cracks open and I’m like oh fuck that’s deep.
I’m not the quickest on the uptake in most things but I flatter myself I get there eventually.
Anyway. This song got included in this series largely because of the line in the second-last verse “you were there strummin’ on your gay guitar like you’re tryin’ to tell me somethin’ with your thumb”, and I love that image so much it’s getting included. Especially because music is used as a communication tool in this story. So there it is.
I’m sort of not entirely okay at the moment so I’m at a loss for making this any more eloquent! I don’t have the sad kind of depression, I have the kind where I just get very quiet and very stupid because most of my mind isn’t working, and the seasonal part of it has ended but I think the rest of the chemistry isn’t exactly optimal somehow. Distraction gets you through it for a sufficient value of “through it” but it’s got its fallbacks, largely that if most of your brain isn’t working then distracting yourself kind of only exacerbates that.
So anyway. It’s a pretty song and rest assured, I have some deep thoughts about it but zero ability to be witty or pithy about that. I’m going to stick this into my queue and hopefully I’ll get a chance to come back and fix it before it posts, but if not, well, here it is.
Now I’ve tried drinking rye and gamblin’
Dancing with damnation is a ball
But of all the little ways I’ve found to hurt myself
Well you might be my favorite one of all
This album is fucking dynamite, so if this kind of music doesn’t make you ill you should probably check it out. It hits me kind of sideways, kind of opaque and not obvious, but eventually it cracks open and I’m like oh fuck that’s deep.
I’m not the quickest on the uptake in most things but I flatter myself I get there eventually.
Anyway. This song got included in this series largely because of the line in the second-last verse “you were there strummin’ on your gay guitar like you’re tryin’ to tell me somethin’ with your thumb”, and I love that image so much it’s getting included. Especially because music is used as a communication tool in this story. So there it is.
I’m sort of not entirely okay at the moment so I’m at a loss for making this any more eloquent! I don’t have the sad kind of depression, I have the kind where I just get very quiet and very stupid because most of my mind isn’t working, and the seasonal part of it has ended but I think the rest of the chemistry isn’t exactly optimal somehow. Distraction gets you through it for a sufficient value of “through it” but it’s got its fallbacks, largely that if most of your brain isn’t working then distracting yourself kind of only exacerbates that.
So anyway. It’s a pretty song and rest assured, I have some deep thoughts about it but zero ability to be witty or pithy about that. I’m going to stick this into my queue and hopefully I’ll get a chance to come back and fix it before it posts, but if not, well, here it is.
