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[dragonlady7]

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I HATE VIDEO EDITING
I HATE IT SO MUCH
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT

I was in the middle of exporting a movie from iMovie to .dv format, which takes like 2 hours, and I closed my laptop, like a FUCKING DUMBASS. I opened the laptop up when I came back 10 minutes later and realized in horror what I had done, and the screen wouldn't turn on. Obviously the operating system was hung. MOTHERFUCKER.

I had to hold down the power button for over a minute to get the thing to restart (I tried waking it up every possible way, but the operating system was hung, and I got nothing) and I have lost everything and have to start over.

If I had a computer powerful enough to edit video, this would not be a big deal. But I have to do things like, select all clips to import, drag them into iMovie, and walk away for two hours, because I can't use my computer for anything else while it's thinking that over. And saving files, well, I can kinda surf the Web meanwhile, but occasionally my processor just won't be able to handle Gmail or Facebook and I'll have to sit there for literally five minutes while the little rainbow wheel spins.
This is why I hand-sew.
A lot.
At my computer.

So I hate video editing, and really, seriously, if the league wants video edited, they can find someone who has a computer that's not five years old and not a laptop purchased for word-processing and Internet surfing, which is precisely what this computer was purchased for. Five years ago.
There must be ONE PERSON somewhere else in this league who owns a reasonable computer and can figure out iMovie, which a monkey with Down's Syndrome could figure out given the proper motivation. If I were making more than $100 a week I would upgrade my computer. But I am not, and when you are making $100 a week, it is hard enough to afford $40 a month in dues and $200 a month in health insurance. I can't really afford any more for roller derby. I am sorry. Edit your own fucking videos.

Comments

[rootsnradicals.livejournal.com]

Take a deep breath, and reapeat after me:
"I would love to do that, but I can't". Then drink heavily and refreshingly. If that doesn't work, just shout "NO!" at the top of your lungs and even if people still want you to do stuff, they'll be too scared to ask...

(and most importantly, remember to tell me this when I am going insane next time it's my turn!)

[dragonlady7.livejournal.com]

J's just so GOOD at asking for stuff. "It doesn't need much editing! Only one camera angle! It's just that in order to get our recommendation letter we want to send them the footage and photos. The future of the league is riding on this. But I wouldn't dream of imposing on you. I just don't know if anyone else can doo what you doo."

Of course he never sounds like that, damn him.

It's fine, it's just never actually that easy. And I hate it so much that I procrastinated and did all these "urgent" household tasks I'd been avoiding doing for, like, six months...
But hey! I have new shelves in my bathroom now! I'll try to look at it that way. ;)

[besina-sartor.livejournal.com]

I understand your frustration, it's definitely time for someone else to step up for a while.

[dragonlady7.livejournal.com]

I'd say it is, but I feel like a heel because nobody has. The guy who gets the footage stopped giving it to me because I started melting down, but nobody else will take it so now it just means we don't have footage, which is dumb because why do we bother filming it? But I just can't. I can't. I can't do it. And I feel awful that I can't.
If I had better equipment. If I had more time. If I had better organizational skills and knew how to manage the enormous files-- I bought a 500GB drive so I could do this, and I've filled it up, along with the 250GB drive I already had, on top of the 120 GB drive on my computer. I can't afford another 500GB drive, but everything is full. Every time I do another project I have to do things like burn family photos to CD and delete them from my hard drive, and I guess just hope that I don't lose the CD...
I just don't have the processor power or the hard drive space or the software or any kind of talent at this, and I sort of figured that if I did it badly enough for long enough someone would eventually step up. And lots of people have said, "I know someone who said they could do what you do in like, an hour," and I've said, "Great! Give me their phone number!" even though the sentiment made me feel about two inches tall. (OK, I'm not SUCH an idiot that anyone could do what I do in that small an amount of time-- there's just no way. A lot more goes into this than anyone realizes. Even with a good computer and plenty of space and better software it'd still take some doing. Just not 30-60 hours of doing.) But I still don't have any phone numbers...