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Still sick. Still not getting much sleep. Feeling better anyway. Wish I didn't have small animals living in my sinuses, though.
Shaved my legs last night and cut myself. I was so astonished when I did it-- I hadn't cut myself in years!-- but then I thought, well, I haven't been shaving much either. Hah.
Have been blogging intensively at e:strip, which has taken away, astonishingly, from my output here. It's funny how very different the things I write there are than here.
Did I mention my new skates performed well on Sunday but I don't know when I'll ever get the trucks adjusted properly? They're much lighter than my old ones, and I'm more nimble and less easily-tired, but I don't know if they'll make me a much better skater in the grand scheme of things. But, my feet also hurt less, so that's good. I need insoles for them, but don't know where I'll get them. The perfect insoles elude me. I have gotten by for a year with ones I made myself out of an old gel insert, an old heel-cup insert, and a lot of duct tape, but the duct tape melts to my socks, and I don't really like the feel of it either. They're sort of giving out, though I re-taped them. So I didn't transfer them to my new skates-- just skated on the factory insoles. The boot itself is built more solidly, with a heel cup and an arch support built in, in a limited fashion, but I don't know how much that will help. I guess I'll see if my knees start to hurt this week.

The writing is still going astonishingly well, though the breakneck pace has slowed. I had to kickstart myself, after a full day with no progress, by breaking out and starting at a later point, chronologically. I'm writing sloppier on the later stuff because I know it will get totally rewritten when I fold it into the full draft, but I'm discovering a lot of things I hadn't known, and will need to have known for some of the intervening things. So that's awesome.
But it's still slow, and I'm just so discouraged every time I think of it, how many hours I've poured into this project, how inefficient I've been, and how generally poorly I've managed my time. Five years, and almost nothing to show for it.
I am also worried that everything I write seems to wind up as dialogue. I've written several thousand words now that are simple, straight, back-and-forth dialogue, with zero action. I throw in a few situational bits, of course-- gestures, fidgets, expressions, movement-- but nothing happens. So I'm starting to worry, because it seems to me that if I were writing literary fiction that might be OK, but a fantasy novel, action/adventure? Really, how long can they talk?
I can't tell if it's boring. People have in the past really praised my dialogue, but I don't want that to be all there is!
I'm just a big old chatterbox and can't be shut up, even through surrogates.

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[kittyc1978.livejournal.com]

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[kkatowll.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon! Do you think you have the flu? If you need antibiotics, I happen to have a bunch that I could send you. (I bought them in Mexico last summer because it's cheap there and you don't need a prescription. But I never needed them, and they expire at the end of the year, I think.)