annoying

[dragonlady7]

I had a practice this morning, so I got up, got dressed, and went and skated. I have another practice tonight, so I knew, all day, that at 6:30 I'd have to be ready to leave again.
For some reason that made my brain click into this mode that I had to wait that whole time. From noon until 6, I couldn't settle down and perform any tasks. I couldn't even take a nap. I just wasted six hours. I didn't even cook-- dinner tonight was leftovers.
It was very frustrating.

This is why, working afternoons, I never got as much done as you'd think I would. I would spend the whole morning uneasy, unable to focus on any task, because I was going to have to get ready and go soon.

I hate being like that. I don't know why time seems worthless to me if it has a hard boundary. But I just can't relax and get into anything if I know I'm going to have to do another thing soon. You'd think this would be kind of a basic ability, but I don't have it.

I couldn't even get my heart into messing around on the Internet. Anyway, I'm dressed and ready now, and I just feel like I've wasted a day. Pthbbbtt.



And my knees hurt. Boo.

Comments

[bmickey.livejournal.com]

i am the same exact way... its frustrating.

[dragonlady7.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm glad I'm not the only person!!

Guh. Six hours. I have so much to do. I could've done any number of things. I started to, but couldn't focus long enough! I couldn't even focus enough to weed the garden!
Of course, the hurting knees didn't help with that at all. I am so mad about them.

I tried to do a sewing project but couldn't focus long enough to even find the materials.

[bmickey.livejournal.com]

yeah i used to work a 12-9 shift and it was horrible. i would wake up at 9 or 10 and constantly think to myself that i had no time to do anything, so i never did (even if i tried waking up earlier), and then when i got home i complained the whole time that there was no time to do anything! instead of focusing on getting stuff done i could only focus on how i had no time for anything.

and boo knees hurting. mine have been acting up lately because of the weather. i love the fall and how its getting cooler but my knees are screeeaaaming.