Attn: Saucies

[dragonlady7]

It looks like one of your members has linked you all to my blog again and has stated that I'm whining about the reffing in the last game and saying terrible things. I'm just guessing that's what's been said. Please prove me wrong, you're welcome to.

So I will here state, to save time, because I really am in need of a restful weekend OFF at last:

• I never said that the reffing was the only thing that led to the outcome that occurred. You guys totally outplayed us, and yeah, it was an awesome game. I never said otherwise.
  
• I do, however, feel that there were issues with the reffing, and am worried that if they do not improve, actual safety issues will only worsen. I sincerely believe that the skaters have really stepped up their game but for one reason or another (and there were many reasons), the refs were not able to do the same.
  
• That is not to say I do not respect the refs: I do, and their job is nearly impossible. Telling people who point out, however, that they still have shortcomings, that they don't support the refs, is bullshit.
  
• I'm really not interested in causing drama. Nor am I interested in debating the ways in which I suck. I am also not at all interested in defending points of view I never claimed to have.
  
• I really, really wish whichever of you consistently links my posts to the Saucies' Yahoo! group would at least leave a comment so I knew the onslaught was coming. I say a lot of things, some of which, when removed from context, are fairly cumbersome to re-engage with in order to defend. A little time to reread what I wrote and prepare myself would probably help.
  

But the "drama"? Most of the "drama" that had me so wound up and terrified this week is that last year, when I tried to engage in a reasonable conversation about things I saw that bothered me, I got slapped down for things I never said, and when I finally managed to convince the people slapping me down that that wasn't what I'd said at all, and they made up with me, that's not what got remembered: People don't remember that I owned up and resolved the drama last year. All they remember is that there was drama.

So I've learned that it doesn't really matter: the point is, I said something someone doesn't like, and no matter whether I manage to convince that person that my viewpoint was reasonable, I will always have said something someone didn't like, which apparently invalidates me as a person.

So, I just had my first migraine ever yesterday because I've been so stressed. Suffice to say, I'm really not interested in debate. I didn't actually say anything any of you could legitimately object to.

So please go start drama somewhere else, because I actually already finished with it, and you're too late. If I were interested in drama, I'd be blogging about... well, I'm not. So fuck that. There, you got me to self-censor. Are you happy?

No, of course not, because the very nature of the problem dictates that no one is ever happy.
Spare me the drama.