suck

[dragonlady7]

I am feeling sucky at the moment.

1) Am discussing sister Fi with one of my cousins. Fi is depressing and we can't make her stop whining about how she hates her life and change it instead. I have given up repeatedly but one can't actually give up on one's sister. So, is depressing.

2) Can't stop coughing. Hurts a lot. Head and back now hurt. Neck nerve is still pinched and hates me despite my having spent the entire night sleeping flat on my back on a heating pad. No love from the nerve.

3) At work, Management has decreed that now servers will, first thing, offer water to everyone who sits down. And yet... they won't give us a pitcher so that we can fill water glasses with an effective quickness. It takes forty-five seconds to fill a glass with water with the stupid-ass beverage gun we've got now. A table of 8 sits down? By the time you've got their water, they've already gotten up and bought themselves food from the takeout counter because you've been gone so fucking long. I tell you what, I am going to be pouring people water out of the fucking bar sink, because the beverage gun is too fucking slow.
And yes, thank you for telling me how to do my fucking job. My favorite part is how many people ask for water and then decide they don't actually want anything else at all thanks. To them, I will someday say, "Well fuck you too!" And then I will quit my job. Cackling with glee.

4) Great, now PayPal is spamming me and the "unsubscribe" link takes me to the "sign up for our shit" page with no actual unsubscribe option. Oh guess what? I'm not unsubscribing, I'm just flagging you as spam for Gmail, and won't be reading any more correspondence from you. Thanks! Just give me my money, ok?

5) Fucking cough. Fucking hurts my throat.

6) This post isn't even funny. I was hoping to at least rant amusingly, since rants are so often amusing, and all I'm getting is obscenities. Bastards.

7) But my cousin in Oslo, Andreas, has found a job as a geophycisist (why not? His degree's electronic engineering), and spends five weeks at sea, then five weeks entirely at liberty back on land. GOD I WOULD KILL FOR A SCHEDULE LIKE THAT. Jesus. He says he's getting a little bored and wonders whether he should find something else to do with all this free time?

8) By the way, Andreas agrees that I should run away to Japan.

Comments

[kkatowll.livejournal.com]

I suspect you would just be miserable AND alone in Japan, but hey, why not try it?

Yay for Andreas' cool schedule. Everyone knows scientists get all the fun. :)

[dragonlady7.livejournal.com]

I fully expect that I would be utterly miserable and alone in Japan. I was utterly miserable and semi-alone in Scotland. But I was travelling, which was interesting, even though God did it ever suck.
At this point I am facing the grim fact that my resume contains nothing of any interest to anyone, and if I want to have a job where I can sit down, ever, or where I can have weekends or holidays or for that matter two fucking days in a row (gasp) off-- pretty much if I ever want to see my family ever again, I'm going to have to either go back to school, or do something really interesting. I can't afford to be an intern, and I can't think of anyone else in their right mind who would hire me for much else. So I might as well go the whole hog and do something retarded but interesting before I try to move on to another phase, like perhaps one in which I reproduce or maybe write a book, or both.

But you can rest assured, I am not thinking of running away to Japan to find awesome fun and adventure. No, I'm pretty sure that won't happen. Everyone I love is in Europe or the US and I've never been all that terribly interested in Japan or Asia. But it would be something constructive to do.

[kkatowll.livejournal.com]

Well, Trevor will be there in a year, so if you were there you could run into him, which would be amusing if not terribly helpful. I sure hope the next phase isn't reproducing. My god, no. Kill yourself first.