Well.

[dragonlady7]

Have accomplished very little during this, my "weekend". Wednesday I pretty much just blew, wasting time and relaxing and taking a nap and hanging out and doing all sorts of things I haven't done in ages. I really tried to be focused and Work On The Novel but God, I couldn't face it. I opened the folder and looked at it and just... closed it again. No. I needed a break, I guess.

Today I did grocery shop, and that's nice but y'know, not exactly dynamic either. I took another nap, a lovely long one which I probably didn't need but thought it couldn't hurt-- my ear has been feeling funny and I cannot afford a trip to the doctor to get antibiotics prescribed if it's an ear infecton (do I even have to say I don't have a doctor? Duh. I haven't had health insurance since 2003. Not bloody likely I've got a doctor. If I get sick it's either home remedies or the emergency room and nothing in between) so I'm figuring rest and fluids, why not?

I am officially fat again, having gained back the 5 pounds that went missing last week. Oh well. I'm still hungry all the time, and while I'm attempting to be sensible, I did scarf half a bag of Chee-Tos today in my first such indiscretion since, well, the last time I had Chee-Tos. (I blame Tuesday: I actually had two meals Tuesday while working. I know-- eating at work? What was I thinking?)

But, I did get one thing done, if you can call it done. I uploaded my new website up over the shitty old one in a moment of madness. So there it is: my new website. I've also created a special password-protected directory (which it took Dave like a minute and a half to do, and made me feel a little dumb for not asking earlier) where I'm going to post the next level of VikingNovel revisions. I'll keep up the posting at the Livejournal, but I'm going to attempt to do yet another rewrite (yes, as I go: I'm running short on time and need to focus more on this and maybe making that much progress will keep me feeling better) and post that up there. So far, nothing, but it's *there*. Which is a *start*. Maybe some non-LJ people can read it now. :)

But fuck, fuck fuck, I am becoming so terribly hampered by the fact that I don't have a laptop. I spend fifteen goddamn hours a week staring at this little Newton and all i can do is type on it. I can't see things I've already written. I can't revise, I can only compose. it's absolutely maddening. I require multiple windows, the way I revise, and I can't do that on the Newton. I waste so much of that time, the time I have to write, because I don't have whatever I need to consult. i just waste the time on frustrating rewrites that are useless because they lack the previous draft and so are just wrong in places. And I waste so much time not getting anything done because I can't see the materials I need, because I can't reread to get myself interested again.
And i can't do a lick of work on the fucking website, which is what i need badly to work on for this new idea.

So... I can't revise, and I can't website, and I can't really do much of anything. ARGH.

Also, I often get tired of where I'm sitting and just want to move to another room or maybe outside, and I can't-- it takes me a huge amount of hassle to move my computer. I love it and don't want to give it up but shit, man, I need a fucking laptop if I'm ever going to get everything done I need to.

Comments

[kkatowll.livejournal.com]

I'm not so sure about the website stuff, but the multi-windowed writing could work on an old cheap laptop...you could probably buy one on ebay for $75 or so. Granted, you probably don't have $75...but hey, that's less than 3 percent of a donated egg. :)