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tyellas, which was an enjoyable trip. There I found a link to this article from the Village Voice, discussing the question: how the hell does a young woman have it all or even just some of it nowadays?
The first quoted person attended the same college I did and probably graduated the year before I did, though it doesn't say. U of R is just big enough that I wouldn't have known her. So that made the article more immediate right off the bat.
Yeah, I am twenty-five, my 'career' consists of hoping people tip me, and I have spent 17 months since I graduated in 2002 without health insurance. Currently, I have not had health insurance since December 2003. I may be eligible for subsidized health insurance from one of my two jobs in April, but am not sure. It will still cost more than I can afford, and my parents may have to help me foot the bill. The only medical care I have received in the last 15 months is through Planned Parenthood. One of my classmates from junior high recently fell ill while uninsured and is facing $8k in debt from that alone. I owe $19,000 in student loans for the degree I'm not using.
And here I still have this vague thought somewhere in the back of my mind that someday maybe I'll have a big house and some kids? Just maybe?
Heh. If I win the fucking lottery, maybe.
I sent the article to Dave, who was a bit confused by the fact that men weren't even mentioned in the article except as absent providers. He himself gave up a lucrative job to go back to school, and is even deeper in the hole than I am.
The article and the others linked to it depressed me, and pissed him off, because the first one seemed to assume that men never want families or have to struggle to go back to school. The one that from its title sounded like it would be exploring the male counterpoint just turned out to be about a guy who did stupid things with credit cards.
But yes, I'm depressed. I also readtyellas's little article on leaving the country, and both Dave and I still think it would be so awesome to go to school overseas. I have this fond little daydream that someday I will. But yeah, that's in the same category as above. If I do live the dream of hanging out overseas, I will be like 50 before I'm settled enough to have a family. So... I guess... too bad. My twenties are half over and I'm broke; all the things I want to do before I'm 30 require money: so, too damn bad.
p.s. It's snowing like crazy here and i'm going to have to leave way early to get to work.
also, there's a blizzard down in the NY area, a real blizzard, in that people are supposed to not leave their houses, or risk death. So, that's kinda cool.
Ah well. Must go prepare for the day. Dave won't go outside and play in the snow with me. Bummer.
tyellas, which was an enjoyable trip. There I found a link to this article from the Village Voice, discussing the question: how the hell does a young woman have it all or even just some of it nowadays?The fact is that not all of us are going to beat the pay gap, shatter that transparent ceiling, and have it all. Whether our dreams pull us toward the Learjet or the Land Rover, we're going to feel torn. Confronting that reality can be painful, even shaming.
The first quoted person attended the same college I did and probably graduated the year before I did, though it doesn't say. U of R is just big enough that I wouldn't have known her. So that made the article more immediate right off the bat.
Yeah, I am twenty-five, my 'career' consists of hoping people tip me, and I have spent 17 months since I graduated in 2002 without health insurance. Currently, I have not had health insurance since December 2003. I may be eligible for subsidized health insurance from one of my two jobs in April, but am not sure. It will still cost more than I can afford, and my parents may have to help me foot the bill. The only medical care I have received in the last 15 months is through Planned Parenthood. One of my classmates from junior high recently fell ill while uninsured and is facing $8k in debt from that alone. I owe $19,000 in student loans for the degree I'm not using.
And here I still have this vague thought somewhere in the back of my mind that someday maybe I'll have a big house and some kids? Just maybe?
Heh. If I win the fucking lottery, maybe.
I sent the article to Dave, who was a bit confused by the fact that men weren't even mentioned in the article except as absent providers. He himself gave up a lucrative job to go back to school, and is even deeper in the hole than I am.
The article and the others linked to it depressed me, and pissed him off, because the first one seemed to assume that men never want families or have to struggle to go back to school. The one that from its title sounded like it would be exploring the male counterpoint just turned out to be about a guy who did stupid things with credit cards.
But yes, I'm depressed. I also read
tyellas's little article on leaving the country, and both Dave and I still think it would be so awesome to go to school overseas. I have this fond little daydream that someday I will. But yeah, that's in the same category as above. If I do live the dream of hanging out overseas, I will be like 50 before I'm settled enough to have a family. So... I guess... too bad. My twenties are half over and I'm broke; all the things I want to do before I'm 30 require money: so, too damn bad.p.s. It's snowing like crazy here and i'm going to have to leave way early to get to work.
also, there's a blizzard down in the NY area, a real blizzard, in that people are supposed to not leave their houses, or risk death. So, that's kinda cool.
Ah well. Must go prepare for the day. Dave won't go outside and play in the snow with me. Bummer.
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Date: 2005-01-27 02:21 am (UTC)My twenties are half over and I'm broke; all the things I want to do before I'm 30 require money: so, too damn bad.
I empathize with this statement in the most pathetic and disturbing way. I, too, earned an undergrad degree which had great potential to take me far and got me nowhere. I fell into a sort of depression and state of apathy, and am only now starting to get back on my feet (or, at least rolling over with the intention of pushing myself into a sitting position and eventually getting back onto my feet, hehe).
I turn 30 in April--you at least have several years left before that birthday comes to you. Have you looked at other jobs? I know you mentioned grad school before...is that an option?
I don't know--I just want you to know that you are sooooo not alone in feeling blue about your life, and I know that things look and feel bleak, but if *I* can find a way to wriggle out of it, I'm sure that you can, too.