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This has been my entire life. Nowadays I mostly do *something* before the end of the day, which is a significant improvement. Meanwhile you’re holding down a job and making your own clothes and writing fanfic and helping your family. You’re amazing.
Awwwhhh! I missed this until just now. <3 <3 <3 I am just continually frustrated by being one of a long line of People Who Get Shit Done and I am missing most of the Get Shit Done components of my personality, but retained intact every single bit of the Expectation Of Having Got Shit Done personality facets, and so it’s mostly just paralysis and anxiety.
Spending so much time helping my family, though, is partly because I’ve realized that if I just glom onto family members’ momentum I can get a lot of shit done. During Farm Baby’s nap ( “I’m not a baby,” she said indignantly while I was cradling her in my arms because I’d been holding her on my hip and she’d flipped upside-down and I’d nearly dropped her, “don’t hold me like a baby,” so I let go of all but her ankle and dangled her by one foot, A++ Aunting job, actually it worked great, she was highly entertained because I didn’t drop her) my sister said let’s finish the signs for the picking garden, and so she painted three and I painted nine in the same amount of time, and they’re done now, but if she hadn’t said that and gotten the extra slates I needed while I gathered up the brushes and paint, I’d’ve puttered around in circles for hours and not finished.
Still need to put little chili pepper symbols on the hot peppers to denote how spicy they are, but done otherwise. That’s months of project, and I’d thought there were hours of work left, and that was all.
Anyway. I just get paralyzed, stuck in a loop or unable to decide between two courses of action or unable to proceed because I don’t know which order to do things in, that kind of thing, and it’s most annoying. Fortunately, my sister is somewhat used to it and has gotten used to just telling me what to do next, and mostly isn’t judgy about it. The middle-little sister is worse than I am, so she’s used to dealing with it.
But I don’t get nearly as much done as I make it sound like I do here– I always list it here because it makes me feel better!
This has been my entire life. Nowadays I mostly do *something* before the end of the day, which is a significant improvement. Meanwhile you’re holding down a job and making your own clothes and writing fanfic and helping your family. You’re amazing.
Awwwhhh! I missed this until just now. <3 <3 <3 I am just continually frustrated by being one of a long line of People Who Get Shit Done and I am missing most of the Get Shit Done components of my personality, but retained intact every single bit of the Expectation Of Having Got Shit Done personality facets, and so it’s mostly just paralysis and anxiety.
Spending so much time helping my family, though, is partly because I’ve realized that if I just glom onto family members’ momentum I can get a lot of shit done. During Farm Baby’s nap ( “I’m not a baby,” she said indignantly while I was cradling her in my arms because I’d been holding her on my hip and she’d flipped upside-down and I’d nearly dropped her, “don’t hold me like a baby,” so I let go of all but her ankle and dangled her by one foot, A++ Aunting job, actually it worked great, she was highly entertained because I didn’t drop her) my sister said let’s finish the signs for the picking garden, and so she painted three and I painted nine in the same amount of time, and they’re done now, but if she hadn’t said that and gotten the extra slates I needed while I gathered up the brushes and paint, I’d’ve puttered around in circles for hours and not finished.
Still need to put little chili pepper symbols on the hot peppers to denote how spicy they are, but done otherwise. That’s months of project, and I’d thought there were hours of work left, and that was all.
Anyway. I just get paralyzed, stuck in a loop or unable to decide between two courses of action or unable to proceed because I don’t know which order to do things in, that kind of thing, and it’s most annoying. Fortunately, my sister is somewhat used to it and has gotten used to just telling me what to do next, and mostly isn’t judgy about it. The middle-little sister is worse than I am, so she’s used to dealing with it.
But I don’t get nearly as much done as I make it sound like I do here– I always list it here because it makes me feel better!
