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i’m just trying to collect myself. i feel very off-kilter. i was up super early yesterday so i went to look at the eclipse. really nothing visible to the naked eye, but there were some eclipse glasses willa’s bff’s mom had dropped off, and through those i could see a chunk was missing from the sun, but it wasn’t above the horizon until after the apex of the whole shenanigans, and. anyway. it was a pleasant interlude of watching the sun rise, but then i was exhausted all day.

It’s feeling like much later in the season than it is. Everyone is exhausted, it’s hot, all the equipment is broken, everyone’s cranky, I’m just spending all my time validating people’s feelings and attempting to smoothe over interpersonal conflicts. I swear to Christ I’ve said “It’s so understandable that you feel that way” to my sister so often that I don’t realize I’m saying it anymore. I had not realized what a middle child I was. Well, maybe I did know that. It might be why I’m here.

Wednesday in particular Farmsister was like “I don’t know! Arghh I don’t want to be in charge of stuff!” whenever I asked what I should be working on, so in the afternoon I just started following her around and waiting for her to be like “oh I don’t have time but need to do x” and I’d pop up and be like “what do I need to know to do X” and she’d tell me and i’d do it, and that filled about four hours and meant the day was a productive one.

I spent yesterday with Farmkid and her bff, who is at this point basically another niece, which is lovely to have. Oh I never did tell the whole story of how I got my car inspected by bff’s dad, and he wouldn’t let me pay for it. That was awesome. Anyhow, we had some challenges with school but in the afternoon we spent two hours in the creek. Both girls are learning to go underwater with goggles on and look around at things, and I facilitated this by standing on the bank throwing in large rocks for them to look at the bubbles that made. (They’d been doing it for one another but were exceptionally bad at spatial perception and I had very vivid and warranted visions of someone getting a giant rock to the head and me having to fish the bits of them out of this creek and try to put their brains back in. No thanks. Not my area of specialty. So I took over rock-heaving duty.)

I realized I have to leave this afternoon, to go to Rochester tonight, because we’re apparently going on a pontoon boat tomorrow, and it was one of those things that in the depth of winter and the pandemic sounded amazing, and now i’m like wtf are we going to do on a boat in a lake. but. whatever. it’s my other pseudo-niblings, so it’ll be good to hang out with them, I’ve missed them!

So now I’m wildly off-kilter and running around trying to sort out what I need to do before I go, and accomplishing nothing. Whatever man, whatever.

Gotta make lunch. It should be vegan, it’s Friday and VegMan’s orthodox thing means there’s no mat Friday, and that’s fine. I can come up with something. I think I’m going to do like a stir-fry of vegetables over wheatberries (because i did rice yesterday and there was rice Wednesday too), and I’ll cook a pan of baked eggs in the oven to be the topping for the non-vegans. I could do a side of bacon for topping too, but I also could just not bother with that, Beautiful Livestock Manager’s the only one who bitches about not having meat and he’s out today…. OH i could toast some walnuts? That might be kinda keen to mix in. I don’t have a recipe but like. Recipes are overrated. I need to go find a shitload of onions and some kale, now. (Your picture was not posted)

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i forgot to do today’s chapter update.

i am so tired i can’t see straight

i don’t think i can get it done

and i’m spending tomorrow on a boat

but we’ll see

s o r r y y y y y 😭 (Your picture was not posted)