Yawwwnnn. Sleepy.
Jan. 27th, 2005 10:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dragonlady7I slept in this morning. It was great. I haven't had a good sleep-in in ages. This one, I woke up just enough to know I was sleeping in so I could enjoy it, but not so much that I couldn't, y'know, get some good sleep. I was in Dave's bed so I was warm, too. And now all the muscle aches that were bugging me are gone. So. I am a happy person from that point of view.
It is so nice to have a clean house. The bathroom is absolutely sparkling and it cheered me up so much to walk in there this morning and see that. It meant I took more time over my morning skincare routine (hah, like I have routines... Psha!) and was a great deal more cheerful. I haven't gone into the living room but I know I'll feel pretty much the same way in there too.
It's just that my bedroom's a complete effing disaster. And that's where I'm going to have to sit to work today.
Because lo, I am going to complete Ch. 5 AND hopefully most of Ch. 6 today SO THERE!
... I just have to get started.
In an earlier post I complained that I hadn't written a word, and wound up nearly biting off the head of the inimitable Qwerty when he left a comment asking whether this one counted. (In my defense, he forgot to sign the post, so it was anonymous, and unsigned anonymous posts are often from trolls, so I didn't take it in quite the tone it was meant.) He was being a little bit serious and wanted to say that isn't the journaling part of the process? And the short answer is sorta, in that journaling is part of every process for me at this point, but the long answer is Not really, from the standpoint of getting something done. I have to finish the damn novel and sometimes the more I talk about it the farther away I get from the state where I could actually do it. At this point I've intimidated myself with the knowledge that Ch. 5 needs to be totally reorganized. If I'd just sat down and reorganized it it would've been no big deal: now I'm full of the knowledge that it's going to be a big deal. (Which it isn't.) I freaked myself out over Ch. 4 too, moaning about how much work it was going to be. It didn't take me all that long once I finally started the work.
But "the work" requires a great deal of focus, which requires a great deal of energy, which requires that I not be a lazy fatbitch. I can be a lazy fatbitch and journal alllll day, and often this is the case. But I cannot write unless I boot myself out of lazyfatbitchness. Which is difficult, as that is my natural state.
This is me trying to do that. I think I need a jump-start.
Mmm... Tea?
(Oh, in an entirely different note, yesterday morning on an impulse I stepped on the scale and was surprised, so I stepped on the scale again and it agreed with itself. I came out into the living room and said, "I've lost five pounds!" And Dave looked up at me, looking sort of skeptical, and I finished, "... but I don't know where." "I hope it's not hiding in the hall closet," Dave said, looking disgusted. In the end, I think I found it in my bowl of ice cream. I should go check. But I'm more lazy than fat, so i don't think i will.)
It is so nice to have a clean house. The bathroom is absolutely sparkling and it cheered me up so much to walk in there this morning and see that. It meant I took more time over my morning skincare routine (hah, like I have routines... Psha!) and was a great deal more cheerful. I haven't gone into the living room but I know I'll feel pretty much the same way in there too.
It's just that my bedroom's a complete effing disaster. And that's where I'm going to have to sit to work today.
Because lo, I am going to complete Ch. 5 AND hopefully most of Ch. 6 today SO THERE!
... I just have to get started.
In an earlier post I complained that I hadn't written a word, and wound up nearly biting off the head of the inimitable Qwerty when he left a comment asking whether this one counted. (In my defense, he forgot to sign the post, so it was anonymous, and unsigned anonymous posts are often from trolls, so I didn't take it in quite the tone it was meant.) He was being a little bit serious and wanted to say that isn't the journaling part of the process? And the short answer is sorta, in that journaling is part of every process for me at this point, but the long answer is Not really, from the standpoint of getting something done. I have to finish the damn novel and sometimes the more I talk about it the farther away I get from the state where I could actually do it. At this point I've intimidated myself with the knowledge that Ch. 5 needs to be totally reorganized. If I'd just sat down and reorganized it it would've been no big deal: now I'm full of the knowledge that it's going to be a big deal. (Which it isn't.) I freaked myself out over Ch. 4 too, moaning about how much work it was going to be. It didn't take me all that long once I finally started the work.
But "the work" requires a great deal of focus, which requires a great deal of energy, which requires that I not be a lazy fatbitch. I can be a lazy fatbitch and journal alllll day, and often this is the case. But I cannot write unless I boot myself out of lazyfatbitchness. Which is difficult, as that is my natural state.
This is me trying to do that. I think I need a jump-start.
Mmm... Tea?
(Oh, in an entirely different note, yesterday morning on an impulse I stepped on the scale and was surprised, so I stepped on the scale again and it agreed with itself. I came out into the living room and said, "I've lost five pounds!" And Dave looked up at me, looking sort of skeptical, and I finished, "... but I don't know where." "I hope it's not hiding in the hall closet," Dave said, looking disgusted. In the end, I think I found it in my bowl of ice cream. I should go check. But I'm more lazy than fat, so i don't think i will.)
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Date: 2005-01-27 06:32 pm (UTC)Rejoice in the 5-pound loss. It won't show, but eventually if you actually kept the 5 pounds off, it would show, because if you start by keeping off the weight you've miraculously lost, you end up losing a but more weight and in a couple of years you're like, "Whoa! What happened?"
'Course that requires an actual effort be made...
Ah well. I'm just being enthusiastic here with you.