dragonlady7 | dispatches from middle age

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It’s been a long couple of weeks, I worked six ten-hour days the week before last, and then this week I started off working hard and mildly fucked up my back on tuesday, and all day wednesday i suffered thru it, and then i was sitting at the kitchen table talking to my non-farm sister and suddenly my back went cr-CHK and was all better, which was disconcerting. It has remained a little sore and clicky but it’s better, mostly.

i’ve been sitting down whenever i can because i just. feel. like i’m real tired. is all.

but yesterday and today i kept finishing my work and not having more to do right away, which has been awesome, and in the middle of today i took three hours to take my mother to a follow-up appointment because yesterday she had this kind of newfangled cataract surgery on her second eye, so now both her eyes are bionic and have plastic lenses in them now forever and I sort of didn’t realize that’s what was happening? but it means that she doesn’t wear glasses anymore. she’s worn glasses since 1959. This is weird. I don’t recognize her.

“I need to draw eyebrows on now,” she said. “There’s just nothing to my face.” We both have very pale eyebrows on pale skin and pale blue eyes and pale eyelashes and our faces just melt into white blobs without the anchor of glasses frames.

I told her my trick. Just For Men moustache dye, the color of your hair or a shade darker. Use it for a minute or two. Make sure you put vaseline under your brows in case it drips. it won’t though. rinse it out. voila. you have eyebrows now. “I"m going to try that,” she said.

“There’s a ton in the little tubes and you can mix it up a tiny dose at a time,” I said. “Then it takes you like. Five minutes if you count washing your face. And then you don’t have to draw your eyebrows on for a month.”

Eyebrow pencil is such a racket.

Anyway. Now it is drizzling rain slightly, and I just put on Mazzy Star’s “So Tonight That I Might See” (1993) real quiet so I can still hear the birds and the rain and it’s really peaceful.

and OH did i say i went to an estate sale last weekend with my middle-little non-farm sister and bought myself a cushy comfy chair and an ottoman so i can sit in a comfy chair in my cabin instead of a folding lawn chair. i’m really cozy now. i’m contemplating making the chair a linen slipcover for summer though.

i probably won’t. but it’s cozy and the birds are enjoying the rain and the field is enjoying the rain and mazzy star is fading into you, quietly.

Happy Midsummer. The strawberries are finished but the kohlrabi’s first planting is going gangbusters, there are sweet crunchy things to eat and i’ve worked out most of my schedule for the summer and next weekend i am going to maine with my beloved and it is all going to work out just fine and i will get enough rest, someday. but tomorrow i have to work the farmer’s market in the rain again, though not all day, so probably it will be fine.

and yes i am getting some writing done and it is going to be good, i promise. (Your picture was not posted)

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