why i don't know, i've slept a lot but it's not that kind of tired, tho i'd
benefit from a nap for sure, idk
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oh cool it’s thursday again and i didn’t do basically any writing this week
and now i’m in this brace which actually doesn’t stop me from typing so
that’s good but uh yeah it slows me down
sister and fam are coming home today so that’s great i should probably
clean things and empty the rabbit’s litter boxes again but i have so much
to do today. i have the follow up appointment with the orthopedic thingy. i
am really regretting going to the ortho urgent care because so far he’s
right and it’s not bacteria and honestly my tendons would’ve healed fine on
their own i just needed to know it wasn’t still an infection. i don’t need
this brace, which i’m sure my insurance will charge me like two hundred
dollars for. Sure it helped but i wasn’t actually there because the pain
was bad, i was there because i thought the pain meant i was being eaten.
and i’m not convinced it’s not going to come back in a week anyway like
last time. but. idk.
(It is, incidentally, extremely horrifying to me to contemplate that the
current pain is that the bacteria, which was not unmedicated in my body for
more than a couple of days at any point, managed to inflict so much damage
on my tissues that it’s inflamed now. the cyst on my forefinger tendon is
the most painful bit and it’s nowhere near the original injury.
i am just overwhelmed in general, idk when that’s going to ease up if ever.
veg man has fed me several times this week, which is very sweet of him.
nobody thinks i can feed myself. my sister thinks that because the only
kitchen i can use is hers and i’m afraid to meddle with her stuff. anyway
everyone’s probably right, left to my own devices i’d only eat weird shit.
i’m eating all of the dairy at the moment though, because i can.
gotta give a friend a ride from the garage, then i gotta go to my doctor’s
appointment like fully two hours later. this is not a full schedule,
exactly, but i am jittery at the possibitlity of missing something, since
of course it’s outside my normal route and it’s all time-sensitive.
Ridiculous, but that’s how my brain works.
maybe i’ll be told i can stop wearing the brace; i have a bunch more
baskets of eggs to wash and i told veg man i’d help him by freezing some
green beans tomorrow so i could really use having two hands back.
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