Uh.

OK, I had a whole entry half-composed in my head, but then I came and read my f-list and there was this entry, and I sort of don't know how life is supposed to go on when shit like that happens in the world. I mean, I know awful things happen all the time, but the academic knowledge that terrible things happen is much different than reading a firsthand, immediate account of someone's fucking dad shooting himself in the fucking head.
It's even worse if you've been following along with her recent entries about trying to get her life together and get help for her various horrible medical conditions, mental and physical.
So that's really upsetting and I don't know if it's possible to have an intelligent response; all I've managed is gibbering.

But if I don't try to write the half-composed entry, I'll be disorganized all day, so I suppose life does go on. How does one explain, by the way, that one is upset about reading a blog post by someone one only knows through a blog? It is confusing and convoluted etiquette, I think. I awkwardly say "online friend" or "person I know online", but it's unclear and mostly sounds, well, weird.

I don't know.
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