i love shara and i see that her death built a lot of poe’s character BUT





This is a good question! Now I have a strong urge to read all her comics and write her a heroic and sacrificial death that somehow completes her own character arc and is meaningful to her, instead of it being all about Poe. I mean, I like Poe and I’m 100% here for his angst, but women still don’t exist for men’s feelings. 

this drives me crazy too! and i don’t think it’s something canon will ever fill in!
it’s just Required. she’s a mom, it’s Star Wars, she’s just got to be dead and that’s how it is, and Leia is the only exception because she’s the only exception. That’s just. That’s it.
god help me why am i wondering about the sanitary facilities on x-wings? and the probable side effects of the stimulants you’d have to take for a multi-day mission, and how you’d definitely experience GI side effects? 

“So um.” Finn had not contemplated the logistics of being in an X-Wing for more than a few hours. He knew they wore compression gear under the flight suits, to keep circulation to their extremities even without gravity. But he hadn’t really thought about anything beyond that.

“There’s no lavatory,” Poe said. “You gotta wear a piss bag. It’s not as glamorous as it looks in the holos.”

“Four days,” Finn said.

“You don’t want to know what my digestive system’s like after all these years,” Poe said. “I don’t know that I really want to have this conversation in the nominal presence of food.”

“Holy shit,” Finn said.

“It’s really not,” Poe said.


Poe grabbed one of Finn’s hands with both of his, and his hands were freezing cold and shaking. “Hey. Hey, it’s okay, man. I do this a lot. It’s– I’ll let you know if anything happens that isn’t totally normal. I’m gonna– I’m gonna go to the shitter now. You can go on about your day. If you want, come check on me in like an hour. I might have passed out in there. Okay?”

“I could come with you,” Finn said.

 “You don’t want to be anywhere near this when it happens,” Poe said. “It’s sweet of you to offer.”

“I’m a stormtrooper,” Finn reminded him, “we have literally no notion of privacy. I cannot tell you how weird it is for me to go into a room by myself to shit. I’m used to doing that socially. We had, like, schedules.”

“Don’t make me laugh,” Poe said, giggling helplessly. “Oh– oh no, don’t make me laugh.”

“I’m dead fucking serious,” Finn said. “If you want me to come hold your hand while you take a monster shit that is not in any way weird to me and it weirds me the fuck out that it is to you. Stormtroopers never went through that shit alone. Literally. You were never alone.”

“Shit,” Poe said, “if you make me laugh any more I’m not going to make it.”

Finn stood up and held out his hand. “I will get you there,” he said. 
this is part of the bit I’ve had to throw out. it might get recycled but for now, as i set it aside, I just wanted to share these two tiny snippets. 

“This thing is really, really, a hunk of garbage,” Poe said, looking around in a state of unimpressedness so profound he was hanging onto the copilot’s chair for dear life.

“I know,” Rey said. “It should be fun. It always adds a certain element of spice to a journey if you’re never sure whether you’ll be abruptly exposed to hard vacuum at any particular point.”

“Hard vacuum is my favorite kind,” Poe said.


“I can fly anything,” Poe said, looking around the interior of the ship, “but that’s the kind of thing a man says to himself about cool shit, and never really examines when it comes to the actual hunks of junk that apparently still operate in this galaxy.”

“Don’t think I’m not still jealous that you got to fly a TIE fighter,” Rey said.

“Straight into the ground,” Poe said, giving her a jaunty finger-gun gesture, “and don’t you forget it.”
via the sky without wings - leupagus - Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens - Shattered Empire, Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens [Archive of Our Own]:

Chapters: 7/7
Fandom: Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens - Shattered Empire, Journey to Star Wars: The Force Awakens
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Additional Tags: Pre-Canon

Poe dreams of a blue-green tree.

This is a phenomenal work, that just completed. Hear me out: it’s Luke Skywalker/Poe Dameron, and it’s good. Wait, you say, isn’t Luke, like, way older than Poe, and also like, you know, the Last Jedi? 

Yes. And that shit is so not my scene I cannot even tell you. But this? This is how you do a May/December with a power imbalance. Beyond that, this is how you tell a story about The Last Jedi, who is also authentically Luke Skywalker, Farm Boy and giant fukkin nerdlord. 

Listen: you need to read this. I would excerpt my favorite bit as a pull-quote, but I can’t. There’s too much. It’s just the whole goddamn story. It’s funny, it’s heartbreaking, it’s everything I never knew I wanted. 

I’ll give you a funny pull-quote, but it doesn’t do it justice. 

“I give you my word of honor,” Poe says, crouching down to look straight into its lens, “I’m gonna come back down and turn you back on myself when this is all over, deal?” He sticks out his hand.

BB-8 looks at his face, then his hand, then his face again, and finally sticks out its connection plug. Poe clasps it and —“Ow!” he yells, jerking his hand back.

“Blood pact,” BB-8 says cheerfully.

“Okay, I’m also shutting you down myself,” Poe mutters, and reaches for the switch. BB-8 chuckles to itself, pleased, before the light goes dim.

Also I only just noticed that it’s in present tense, so what that says about either me or it, I don’t know.

A fun game to play: when I finally post something from this ‘verse, you can try to spot all of the headcanon shit I just totally absorbed from this fic and completely forgot that I did so. I bet you there’ll be a lot. That’s how vivid the worldbuilding is. This fic is a large part of why I even decided I was interested.

I have no idea where I first saw this rec, but thank you.
via Boyega says Poe/Finn isn't canon, BUT DON'T WORRY, IT'S FINE!:

We have some bad (though perhaps unsurprising) news for Finn/Poe shippers. According to John Boyega, the romance only existed in Oscar Isaac’s imagination.

We can already imagine some kneejerk reactions to this news, so before we go any further, here are three things to consider.

Finn/Poe may not be canon (which: duh), but John Boyega does seem to confirm that Oscar Isaac played Poe as being attracted to Finn. So, that scene where Poe tells Finn he looks good in his jacket, and then bites his lip? You totally read it the right way. 

Just because Boyega says Finn/Poe isn’t canon doesn’t mean he’s homophobic, or that he disapproves of the pairing. So don’t worry, your fave is not problematic! 


You know what?
Thank you for being respectful and not queerbaiting, is what I have to say to that.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t. I am such a goddamn sucker for poly ships lately.
I want to explore how hungry for companionship Finn is; how surely he’s never been alone in his life but also he has never been really loved, as a person. He has been one of a unit for so long; surely they were his bosom comrades, surely he never lacked for closeness, but equally surely they were all discouraged from anything expressing too much individualism. He’d have no idea of romance or sexual exclusivity or the normal dynamics of people allowed to make choices about their companions and privacy.
I want to explore how starvation of everything has made Rey unsure of how interpersonal relationships are even supposed to work; how she’s got no real notion of how healthy consensual sexual and romantic relationships work, and how easily by comparison she picks up on platonic love and blossoms with it.
And Poe– he has to have really seen some shit in his lifetime, he must be pretty beat-up and worn down and especially in the face of the losses they’ve recently sustained, he’s got to be pretty devastated, even personally bereaved. But how much would he feel he had to take onto himself, to not show these babies he’s going to feel sort of responsible for; surely, he’d feel, they have so much already to bear, and his relationship with them must be that of an older sibling or even maybe a parent and how long could he keep that up before Rey, who can feel so clearly, and Finn who has spent his whole life keeping interpersonal peace in close quarters, would see right through him?

But I’m in the middle of two epic fics with another already backburnered, and another crying out to get completed with the serial numbers filed off, plus a looming possibility of RL job changes. Could I write a short story? Probably not. Would I get sucked into another epic and cry? Maybe. Will I chance it?

Really, it comes down to whether someone else says what I feel needs to be said.
Please, this is a plea for good fic recs, because I wandered thru the tags last night and jfc kylo ren is in every fucking story. I don’t honestly give a fuck about him, clearly the canon material is going to deal with him at length. I’m not worried. Sure he is meant to be appealingly fucked-up but we will hear *all about it* in the main movies so I have zero need to see that delved into or explored in any way. Chill, guys.
I am convinced that neither canon nor fandom will do Finn’s emotional arc justice. Finn in particular is gonna get shoved aside and is gonna stand around being cute a lot. I want him to get to have complicated emotions, and I’m relying on you, fandom, to do it.

And even if you do it’ll probably inspire me because you’ll say almost everything I want but not quite. That’s usually how this goes.

god but i am so annoyed at the star wars prequels? how have people dealt with this for a decade??? knowing that it would be so easily fixed? 

the story of how anakin skywalker fell to the dark side when there was so much good in him could’ve been amazing, and the changes needed to make it so aren’t even that big. give me an anakin that’s actually damaged from being a slave his whole life; an anakin that latches onto padme not because she is “beautiful” but because of her compassion, strengths and beliefs; give me obi wan meeting anakin w/ his master and actually bonding with him, agreeing about his potential even if he doesn’t quite believe an old prophecy; give me padme’s simmering fury and protectiveness over a child who fell into slavery which she thinks is disgusting but she can’t concentrate on that right now because her whole planet comes first. give me an anakin that gets to react to the jedi’s fears of him; give me the child that goes from being a slave to being sworn to an order that’s strict and tells him no; don’t fear, don’t form bonds, be better. give me anakin and obi wan bonding scenes. give me palpatine actually being subtle in his manipulations. have padme and anakin keep interacting through the years and anakin falls into slow love with her without realizing, because she is justice and compassion and strength.

 you can keep so many scenes if you just tweak them. so many plot points still work with some background added to it. give me anakin asking if he could see (/free) his mother and beind denied by the council because jedis can’t have connections, anakin, you can’t be attached. have obi wan reluctantly agree that they can’t do it. have him still have the dreams and still protect padme, but when she catches him dreaming and he tells her the truth (that he dreams of his mother in trouble and he’s not supposed to see her but he can’t stop thinking of her, how he abandoned her to that life–) and she’s the one who says they should go to her. because padme never believed in slavery and never wanted to leave her behind in the first place but she had bigger problems then, and maybe she feels guilty about that. have anakin realize he loves her then. and she’s watched him grow and watched him toy the line but she’s not there yet, and he goes to his mother and fails, that’s fine, that’s fine, but he doesn’t kill the entire camp. he’s not there yet. he does it by the code, but then he comes back to padme and he tells her the truth; he wanted them dead. he wanted them all dead. he wanted to kill them with his own hands. she tells him the same thing– that anger is human, that it’s normal to feel– and he says he is a jedi. he must be better. and then he admits; he still wants them dead. he is unsatisfied with the justice he got. he’s scared of how much he wants them dead. isn’t he a jedi? isn’t he good? and padme tells him he is so good. he is allowed to have feelings, she tells him. anger and fear don’t lead to bad things by themselves, letting them control you does. he tells her he loves her and she sees the man he could be and says they can’t. but she wants to, too. 

give me a padme that is just as annoyed at the jedi way as she is any other injustice in the world.give me an anakin that struggles with his feelings and not being allowed to feel them. give me an obi wan that doesn’t understand that struggle and those feelings because he’s never hated, not that much, but anakin has hated his whole life. he has been angry and afraid. give me a palpatine that says things just like padme does; that validates anakin when he has feelings he doesn’t want to confess to obi wan because he is just that much on the side of the jedi order that tells him to just not. give me a obi wan that has failed a friend; a brother, for real, not by convenience of absence but by failing to question his teachings. give me an audience who can sympathize with anakin and can almost fall for palpatine too because he isn’t so obvious the jedis should’ve seen him coming ages ago.

give me an obi wan that listens to count dooku’s warnings and feels torn, not because he doubts the ways of the jedi, but because he’s seen what those ways can do. give me padme and anakin in a slow burn love, with no wedding but with careful stolen moments through time where they let themselves feel, where they both love each other’s passion. where they are both a bit afraid of what it could all mean. give me a yoda that feels actual fucking shame when he realizes his speeches about fear and attachments and feelings is what drove anakin right to palpatine’s waiting treacherous words. give me a yoda with a reason to exile himself and to not want to tell luke the truth; not because the truth is hard for luke or might tempt him, but because the truth is hard for YODA to admit to.

anakin falling to the dark side out of fear of being powerless to save padme– to save his family– just like he failed to save his mother works, tbh. but  give me a padme who doesn’t die in childbirth because she “couldn’t go on”, like she didn’t have two kids, like she wouldn’t have fought tooth and nail to bring back democracy and been the first to lead the rebellion? give me a padme that doesn’t die in childbirth and raises leia for a few years so her fucking comments about her mom makes sense. give me bonding scenes between anakin and people, and superimpose that with the jedis telling him no. you can’t. 

have your audience start to agree with the dark side too, and then when they’re starting to think darth vader was fully justified pull the rug out from under them. have him go too far. it doesn’t have to be child murder, because that’s easy. that’s cheap. but have him be the direct cause of the jedi falling so easily; betraying them from afar because he knew all these people and their weaknesses and he is giving them away for one person. have obi wan and him fight with legitimate feelings; “what you’re doing is wrong” and darth vader asks why? when he has control. it’ll be better. he’ll fix it. and obi wan realizes he failed him because anakin still deals in absolutes, still deals in how slavery hit him; the people who can do anything are the ones with power. the ones who own things. is it greed? it is fear and anger and hate, and that turns to greed, sometimes. sure. 

give me a vader who drives away padme but searches for her because he wants her and his child; doesn’t she understand? she doesn’t, she can’t, she has never wanted one person to rule all. give me a padme who, like luke, still believes in anakin skywalker but who never gets the chance to say it because the rebellion is snuffed out. give me a padme who fakes losing her child so that anakin doesn’t know he has two because she can’t while he is vader. while he is under palpatine. give me a padme who dies fighting, tired and sad but still ultimately hoping for anakin to come back. to be good.

give me an anakin who thinks he’s lost everything and who hates the emperor for it but who’s given up; who lets himself be everyone’s fucking darth lapdog because what is the point? until he realizes luke is alive and then, then he thinks, he has something again. something worth fighting for. 

give me a story where i understand and nearly sympathize with anakin skywalker, where i feel for obi wan’s loss of his pupil, where i see the good luke saw in his dad from the get go but also what caused him to be so twisted. give me the start of the empire as slow and methodical, dark and the result of both sides of the force pushing and pulling instead of weird political moves that makes no sense. where i understand why padme fell in love with him and believed in him. where the jedi order meant well but was so obviously fucked up they were doomed from the start. 

give me the story these characters goddamn deserved

NGL I didn’t see the prequels so I just read this and I’ll just believe this is what those movies were, k?



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